希爾維亞奇奇

It is exactly because of people like you, that people like me would feel like crap sometimes. 

You have never had cancer, you have absolutely NO right to say that I was whining for nothing. 

Who do you think you are? Why don't YOU go do some volunteer work yourself? 

If you have nothing nice to say, then shut the fxxk up. I don't want to hear anything from YOU about ME. 

YOU ARE SUCH AN ASSHOLE!!!

Recently I feel disconnected from the rest of the world.

From my job, from my friends, from my husband, from anything else.
I think I am having my post-cancer treatments depression, again.
Why do I have to be undergoing infusion; throwing up; getting burn by radiation to receive attentions?
People are over with "my" cancer. They have moved on. But I am not.
No one want to talk or hear about my cancer anymore.
You are done. You are cured. You are being paranoid. They said.
I made some new friends. But as soon as I started talking about my cancer, they disappeared.
So I guess I can only talk about having fun and happiness, huh?

I am trying to make people understand why I am having a hard time to adjust to the normal life.
In order for them to understand, I have to bring up my cancer experiences. (It is sickening, but I have to admit, I want more love and attentions when I tell people I have had cancer.)
Then they gave me this "I am so sorry" look.
Then they say, but you are all good now.
Then if you want to talk more, they start to get bored.

I am in a weird psychological state. I feel neglected. I feel ignored.

I am annoyed.


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十多年前  還在台灣時  我曾經在錢櫃上過大夜班
感覺好像是很久以前的事情了
記得那段瘋狂的日子
我們總是下了班以後  繼續去別家錢櫃唱
然後喝的醉醉的 再騎車去學校睡覺
那時候  哪有什麼歌不會唱的
總是跟一堆好朋友 又唱又跳 又哭又笑的

來美國以後 就離KTV的日子 離那段年少輕狂  好遠好遠了

漸漸受到東方文化的影響 卡拉OK也慢慢在美國流行起來
不過多半還是局限於 大廳式的卡拉OK
伴唱帶也多是只有跑馬字幕的無聊內容

偶爾可以看到幾家東方人開的卡拉OK
在我住的城市 東方人不是特多 但是韓國人很多
有一個小小的韓國商場 裡面就有一家"包廂式"的卡拉OK
上星期六 室友的朋友約她去唱歌 我就陪她去

請看以下的照片 就知道這個KTV文化差異 大概有五十年以上
請參閱芸芸的 久違的錢櫃 + The Diner 樂子 然後自行比較

請看後面的 "電視牆" 
 

請注意 影片中每個女生都是嫁給白人



這首堂娜的 "征服" 還不算超老吧?!

它的點歌器材是像那種可以買回家裡唱的點歌機
它有很多韓國歌  有一些中文歌和英文歌

在選歌時 看到了很多奇妙的人名
萬沙浪 高勝美  李茂山  
真是又熟悉又陌生阿

不過 我那天實在唱不出來 因為沒有喝酒阿!!

一個小時美金20元 還不算貴啦
下次帶我家 Daniel 去

Novia 芸芸 現在知道妳們在台灣有多幸福了吧?!

我最近要從博客來網路書店買一些書 多半買一些養生、食譜、減肥、抗癌 或一些好看的小說散文之類 有沒有愛書人 有什麼好書推薦一下？ http://www.books.com.tw/

也可能沒有 還不確定 
要再過幾天才知道 
所以過幾天再說 

前一陣子一直在研究數位相機 
看了好多 reviews 
最後我還是決定買這台 
Cannon SD700 IS 

好期待喔 應該過幾天就會收到了 
到時候 我會多多拍一些照片的