┅愛せない愛したい◆゜　忘れないで‥〞

i confess i am self-fish....
i do wanna meet you....
i do wanna get you....
i do wanna listen to your beautiful voice....
i do want you to be my everything....
i do wanna the wishes would come true....
thats why i am self-fish....



but i can't control myself, my feeling about you, my mind....
you are my HEART, MIND and SOUL....



what if i dun know you;
what if you dun know me;
what if we are not fds;
what if you love me;
what if we can be a couple;



i think the life would be totally different from the life that i am having....



i am not exggerated. i said those words wholehearted.
do you understand what i am thinking about!?
all i wanna say is i am still lovin' you, 我愛您, 愛してる, saranghae, je t'aime....
yet, i know you dun love me....
i hope you are happy and well-being....then its greatful for me too....


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why!?!?!?
why does LeeTeuk have Amnesia!?!?
thats not fair too my love----LeeTeuk....
he is just 27 years old when 1st July,2009!!~
he is still young, isn't he!?
he shoulg get that disease!!~
but why!?
whats the reason to choose LeeTeuk!?


but LeeTeuk is the adorable ANGEL.
i believe Jesus love LeeTeuk and look after him.
so, everything goes well and nothing will be worsened!!~


and luckily, LeeTeuk has the greatest members in Super Junior and fds!!
they love him, and also i love LeeTeuk too!!~<3

I had a great time with YANBI today.
I was really happy =)
We went to euro go go, which is situated in MongKok, Lang Ham Place, for lunch.



They were my lunch~ so tasty =)
I love them!!~ >W<
we shared our lunch together^^~


then, we left and go to MK centre.
YANBI needs to buy the cloths and accessory for her gradulations dinner.
so I shopped with her. be coz I wanna buy a bag too~


after going to MK centre, we went back Lang Ham Place to have a teatime XD"
actually, I wanna eat some dessert and YANBI didn't mind be with me^^~


we ordered two different cakes and shared again =)


they were also tasty~ haha~
i love sweet food!~ haha~
and I love eating XD"


YANBI said that we must need to have gathering next time~
and we will eat together XD"
haha~~


I was really heappy today~
YANBI, lovin' you~>3<


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I went to post office and sent the things about TVXQ! to my love in the morning~
I carried happiness when visting the post office.
I thought of him =)
hope he is being well and having bliss~
I wanna chat with him....
I wanna let him know that I miss him so much..!!


tho I wrote to him, I just wrote in a normal way.
I wanna write something sweet to him. but I know he won't accept to see that.
He doesn't love me and never....
but, I just can't stop thinking of him and loving him....
who can help me??
I don't wanna do that again....
There is something similar to "KoiZora".
I were Mika, I wanna forget the "first love"....
haha~ I'm silly, right?

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nothing to say....
just wanna say :: 〝我好幸福, 我沒有後悔認識了您, 更沒有後悔一廂情願的愛著您!!〞

I can't stop falling in love with you....
It's true!!....
I think of you in anytime....
I wanna see you in my dream!!....
It's true.....
I miss you sooooooo much!!....
Why can you say love me?
I really love you....


This feeling is same to JaeJoong oppa and JoonGi oppa.
I don't know why....
I wanna be with you. but also JaeJoong oppa and JoonGi oppa~


I really love JaeJoong oppa!!....
I always daydream about I were your girl, JaeJoong's girl and JoonGi's girl....
I just can't help thinking....
When I dream about that, I cry.
I cry every night.
I cry without reasons when I look at your photos, JaeJoong oppa and JoonGi oppa's photo....
I wanna be your girl. The one....


Lovin' you. ♥’
Don't ask me why I do love you.
I don't know why. Nobody Knows.
I love you , JaeJoong opp and JoonGi oppa wholehearted!!
It's true.
Until the end of time....


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不知道為甚麼有一種很強烈的感覺....
我本來一直就喜歡您, 愛著您,
您不是不知道的....
您是知道的...
縱然您拒絕我, 我還是停不了的喜歡著您....
我不知道為甚麼....


但是對您是這樣, 對 JaeJoong oppa 和 JoonGi oppa 都是這樣子的....
我發現我真的很愛他們咧....!!
不是對偶像的愛, 是真真正正, 男女朋友的愛....
我也覺得很奇怪....
不知道何時會有這個感覺....
是我對他們的愛太深嗎!?
我連造夢也會見到 JaeJoong oppa 的....
是上天要我這樣的嗎!?
難道上天都不喜歡我嗎!?
為甚麼要這樣對我....
明知道不可能, 還要給我這個感覺....
為甚麼..!!??


我跟您說, 即使您有喜歡的人也好,
您也不可以阻止我愛您的!!....
您是她的, 但我只想我的心裡, 有您的存在而已....
就這樣子而已....


　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　我可以愛您（們）嗎!?

I was so happy!! =]
because I had a great sleep and a sweet dream~
I dreamt who I wanna dream of !!
I met TVXQ! and Ryeowook oppa from Super Junior !!~
WOW !~ really a sweet dream for me~ haha~~ =]
but I finally could not dream of MY LOVE in my sweet dream....
I really really really mis you sooooo much, SWEETY....


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I watched a Korean film ""The King and Clown"" Yesterday night.
That is acted by JoonGi Lee, who is my love!!♥’
It is a good film becoz it has a great plot =]
but.... it also drove me crazy since THE KING kissed JoonGi oppa....T^T"
When JoonGi oppa made up as a female, he was really "beautiful" too!!~
He looked like a real female!!....XD"
He is more beautiful than the real women....!!


In fact, I love him soooooo much!!
He acts very well, so I love to watch his TV series and films!!~
I decide to watch his TV series after the public exam.!!>W<
plz wait for me, JoonGi oppa!!


JoonGi oppa, saranghae yo!!~>3<

Today was my Mathematics public exam.
I was in a bad mood at that exact time....
I'm study hard in Mathematics!!
and why? I didn't do well in the exam....

I cried after the exam.
I cried silently....

The one that I hope heeting a good result----C.
I lose my hope....

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Chemistry is my second subject that I wanna get a higher grade compared with the result of the HKCEE last yesr.
Can I do that??
I hope so!!
But, the more I hope, the more I lose....

IF I can get grade D in Chemistry, I will thank god.
of coz, it's great to get the C in Chemistry.
I wanna prove that, I can do that after leaving PLKCHC!!
To show that I haven't given up!!
So, god bless me then....

I will finish the few years past paper.
I hope I can finish it.
皆さん﹑頑張ってくださいね~~ =]

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I had a great time on last Friday tho I got Chinese Language public exam.
but I went to EMax to enjoy the mini-concert by Yuna Ito~~
Popo gave 2 tickets to me and my sister went there with me~
But sadly, Popo couldn't sit bbveside me....T^T"
How I'm thankful for the tickets Popo gave!! =]

I was pleasure to listen the live from Yuna~
I love her songs because she has a beautiful voice.
Also, 由奈が一番綺麗ですね!! =]
It was the first time to go to enjoy concert~
Happiness followed me after the concert~~ haha~^^
soooooooooo great!!~

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Today, I went to Kowloon Bay, for the Rainbow Gala 3~~
I couldn't believe that I went to the event~~
Po sent me a message last night. Actually, it was midnight~
I hadn't gone to sleep, so I phone to her and asked her what;s matter.
She asked me to go because the event is held on Kowloon, then I said yes.


I and my younger sister, Tsukimomo, spent much money on the event....T^T"
Cloud@Final Fantasy VII and Hetalia....
but we got a lovely and cute Hetalia paper bag!~
How happy I am!! =]


When we almost left, we met Kelvin, Vincent and their friends~
Vincent is a bad guy and devil !!!!
He said something bad about my JaeJoong....T^T"
Thus I "hit" with him XD"
I got a great time with Po, Kay and Tsukimomo!~
It's true!! =]


I hope we will meet again someday after the HKCEE.
I feel happy with you guys!!^^
You all are good to me!!~~<3'


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I have decided to buy TVXQ! the 4th album:: The Secret Code 2CD+DVD !!
but I don't know when to buy....
Po and Carman will back to school for studying and preparation for the HKCEE.
They are very hard-working, ain't they!? =]
I hope they won't mind that I back school with them because I think I got somethings about Physics are misunderstanding....
If I can back school with them, I will go to MK and buy the album!!~
Yet.... I will get a same TVXQ! poster....
I am still confused how I should handle that poster....>"<
Maybe I can find out a way to deal with the problem.


but.... may he refuse to get the poster!?
May he say no to me!?
May he feel that I am annoying!?
I am afraid to know that....
I just wanna tell him that we are still a pair of good friend.
I think he hates me a lot....


Should I send him an E-mail to him!?
Just ask him how his life is goning on recently....
I hope I can know more about him....what he thinks....
He is everthing to me!!....
because I love him.
I hope that is not his girlfriend but she's just his friend.
Can you tell mr the truth!?
Although I have no right to walk into his life, his world,
I just concern about him only.
I hope he can understand me....

今日は山下智久と山田涼介の誕生日です～
智久の 24 才の誕生日おめでとうございます～
涼介の 16 才の誕生日おめでとう～


又大一歲了~~

山 P 要更有 Leader 的感覺喔~~
雖然有孩子氣是不錯啦....

涼介長大了~~
又努力讀書喔~~
雖然您愛唱歌愛表演, 但是學業不容忽視的喔!~



2 位, 加油加油!!
頑張って下さい!!^^~
愛してるよ～～<3'


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今天放學, 跟寶寶和 Kay 去了旺角,
Kay 要去買雜誌, 而我就要去看看 神起 The Secret Code CD+DVD 的價錢....
雖然這張專輯已經發了還滿久的, 可是還是滿貴的....
$420 咧!!
已經沒有零錢用了, 還要那麼貴.... 我心在淌血喔....T^T"


Maths, Paper 2 答對了 37 / 54 咧!!~
yeah~~
整體合格!~^^v


英文應該是最好的一科吧!?



Chemistry 的 Paper 2 也 加了 3 分!~>W<v
有 2 題是 Chem Sir 沒 tick ....
有一題是改錯了XD"
總分滿高的~~


Mock 好像只有 Physics 不合格....(汗)

利特....
幹嘛要畫眼線呀....
整個就很兇的感覺....囧
滿恐怖的 feel....（汗）



個人來說, 我滿喜歡 厲旭 的髮型,
但是在他的頭上, 我真的要習慣一下~
不過呀~ 厲旭還是很可愛啦!~（大心）



晟敏的也是~~
髮型也不錯看喔~^^b



起範 喔.... 卷卷的頭髮的話....
好似... 有點怪怪的感覺耶....囧



強仁 變帥了喔!!



始源....頭髮剪太短了!!（指）



藝聲 喔.... 髮型又像利特咧!!（大大指）



圭賢 的新髮型.... 滿像亀ちゃん的說@v@



希澈 的話, 還是一樣那麼公主!!（爆）



其他的.... 都不說了....（汗）


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舞蹈有點可愛的感覺咧@v@"
曲風喔... 滿特別的~
at least I had never heard that style before =]
第一次聽就覺得滿特別的一個曲風~


總括來說, 不錯喔~
要繼續加油, 好嗎!?