追逐夢想的時代

Whenever it's gone, it's just gone.
Cause I know whatever I got, it's a gift.
Even though it's only a short piece of my life,
at least it was happy at that time.
Even if it may be a first-sight impulse,
at least I am pretty sure it's not.
However, I know it is just my life.
No matter what I wasn't looking for,
it happened unexpectedly.
No matter what I am looking for,
I never got it completely.
A accidental in the melody always leads the song become special, even wonderful.
Similar to my life.
Just after the good accidental, the melody still goes well,
but people goes upset.

美國將從十一日上午凌晨二時（台灣時間十二日下午三時）起實施日光節約時間，也就是所謂的夏令時間，時鐘往前撥快一小時。儘管這是實施已超過半世紀的年度例行公事，但仍有許多人抱怨這種人為變更時間的做法違反自然法則。

美國農夫最反對實施日光節約時間。農夫通常不看時鐘，早上起床聽雞啼，但雞不懂什麼是夏令時間，當然不會提早一小時報曉。農夫不得已，在夏令時間期間看時鐘提早一個小時起床，但這樣卻變成農夫叫醒雞。有美國雞農要求國賠，因為雞的正常作息被政府人為調整時間打亂，造成雞蛋生產量大幅降低。

有一對雙胞胎兄弟，哥哥在凌晨一時五十五分出生，十分鐘後，弟弟接著出世。但在戶口名簿上，弟弟卻變成哥哥，哥哥變成弟弟，因為那天剛好夏令時間結束，哥哥出生五分鐘後，時鐘倒撥一小時，原應是二時五分出世的弟弟，卻變成一時五分出世的哥哥。兩人出生相差時間，從實際的十分鐘，變成相差五十分鐘。不知情的人還以為是難產。

俄亥俄州法律規定，酒吧在凌晨二時以後不准賣酒。有一年秋天的某星期日凌晨二時，一千多名俄亥俄大學學生聚集街頭，向鎮暴警察丟酒瓶。原因是那天是夏令時間結束的日子，時鐘於凌晨二時倒撥一個小時，學生正為多出一個小時喝酒時間而興奮不已，但警察卻進入酒吧干涉，要對賣酒的酒吧老闆開罰單，理由是賣酒時間應於一時五十九分結束，不管二時以後時鐘如何調整，一時五十九分停止賣酒的規定必須遵守。

美國在上世紀五、六十年代實施日光節約時間初期，聯邦政府一度授權各州自行決定是否實施日光節約時間，及何時開始和何時結束。當時，同樣是美東，紐約和華盛頓時間卻有一小時時差，而芝加哥卻與紐約同一時間。從俄亥俄州開往西維吉尼亞州的公車，車程只有半小時，但乘客卻必須在車上調整手錶時間。

當時，甚至在同一州裡，各縣市也有權自行決定是否實施夏令時間。明尼蘇達州的明尼亞波利斯市和聖保羅市，隔密西西比河對望，兩市是休戚與共的生命共同體大都會。一九六五年，聖保羅市決定與全國大部份州同步，提早實施日光節約時間，明尼亞波利斯則決定遵守州政府規定不提前。結果在往後數週期間，居民生活秩序大亂。有些人早上起床時是夏令時間，上班時卻是標準時間，晚上回家又要調回夏令時間。

即使到今天，並不是全美國都一致實施日光節約時間。夏威夷州和亞歷桑那州就不實施夏令時間。不過亞歷桑那州「一州兩制」，位於該州東北角的納伐喬縣，因居民生活與鄰近的猶他州、科羅拉多州和新墨西哥州三州息息相關，因此成為該州唯一實施夏令時間的一縣。

這是真實故的事，而且到今天還是如此。美國鐵路公司的火車，因依規定不能提早開車，每年到了日光節約時間結束那天的凌晨二時，正在行駛中的火車必須停駛一小時，以避免因時鐘倒撥一小時，而造成下一站提前開車，損害乘客權益。但到了開始實施日光節約時間那一天的凌晨二時，火車司機必須快馬加鞭，全力趕路，搶回因時鐘往前撥快一小時而誤點的時間。

這也是真實故事。一九九九年九月某天，恐怖份子在約旦河西岸一公車車站放置定時炸彈，企圖炸毀兩部載滿以色列乘客的巴士。那天剛好夏令時間結束，以色列恢復使用標準時間。因設定時間的恐怖份子和安置炸彈的恐怖份子是兩組人，設定時間的恐怖份子設定的是標準時間，但安置炸彈的恐怖份子誤以為是夏令時間。結果炸彈提前一小時引爆，三個安置炸彈的恐怖份子當場炸死，兩部公車逃過一劫。

「日光節約時間」英文怎麼寫？有一派認為正確寫法是 daylight saving time。Saving是動詞轉形容詞，用來形容 time，即節約日光的時間。這種用法類似 mind expanding book（啟發心靈的書），或 man eating tiger（吃人的老虎）。但另一派人認為正確寫法應是 daylight savings time。Savings變成名詞，與中文翻譯「日光節約時間」較接近。兩派人爭執不下，也互不相讓。書商只好將兩種寫法都納入英文字典。

3/12/2007 12:52:56 AM

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這陣子的生活...
發生了很多"已料到"的改變...
Why I said so?
Maybe I am sensitive...
換而言知...我可以從很小的事情...
感覺出一個人的心情,一件事的結果...
但另一方面...我也有時會因此亂想...
而造成錯誤的結果...
反而讓自己白操心或苦惱...

快十年沒見的表姐...
在妹妹的網路尋人下...
我們得知了她的下文...
雖然...我早猜想她已結婚了..
但得知她結婚的消息...仍然讓我shocked...

Summer Intern的公司...
Manager多次跟我說他願意Hire我...
雖然我心理有種...他不會Hire我的想法...
但仍然有所期待...
直到最近...
我才知道我原來捲入了別人的戰爭裡...
兩間不同實驗室不同教授的競爭...
我間接中成了犧牲品...
所以別間實驗室的人先拿到Offer...
是有點失望...
令我安慰的是...
至少...我不是因為能力差被拒絕...
而是因為潛在能力...而成為犧牲品...
雖然..這些事實對我而已...
只不過是癈話....

朋友之間的對話...
sometimes讓我陷入痛苦...
明知道對方在說謊...
也多次問明了...
還是聽到謊言...
雖然我假裝那不是...
卻從一次偶然的聚會中...
得知"我已猜得"的事實...
也許...人和人之間已失去了坦白了...

有點upset about these things...
也有點討厭自己那種...
容易猜到別人心裡的能力...
這能力讓我在前女友上...更是痛苦...
也許我真的很不想讓前女友受苦...
才一而再三接受她那種自圓其說的笨謊言...
然後又笨到一而再三地被她自己的無知行為揭破...
而我也笨到一而再三地接受原諒...
直到自己心已被傷透徹底卻不知...

真的什麼都不知的人比較快樂?
也許不盡然吧...至少她們無知地做一些...
她們自己不知道錯誤的事情...
但...
就算you know everything...
dones't mean you can control everything or avoid something bad...
The only thing you may get is....the truth...
but...sometimes it is really hurt...
Sigh...What am I supposed to do?
Maybe I never know...
God knows....

Many times we ignore some people because they are not important,
especially for those whom we dislike.
However, sometime we do disregard someone whom we like, whom we love, or whom we adore.
It is because they are special, they are important, and they are different from others; therefore,
we pretend to disregard them, pretend to ignore whatever they did, or even pretend to dislike them.
Ambiguous feeling makes us act carelessly about them.
Jealous feeling makes us feel bad when hearing something not regarding us from them.
Consequently, we still pretend not to care of them, not to feel anything about them.
Finally, we ignore them on purpose.
But why people want to do that?
Cause, people don't know other's thinking.
The only thing they can do is ....
pretend nothing happened even if something really comes out.

在美國生活快兩年多了...
記得當初...放棄交大不念...
想要出國的原因只有一個...
我想要有不同的視野...
想看看不同的環境...
和學習更深的知識...
Indeed, 我學到很多東西...
雖然和當初計畫的有所出入...
也的確...我見識了不同的生活...
但...並沒有自己預期的生活好...
我...其實並不崇洋...
雖然想在這邊工作一陣子...
但也沒有一定想要留在美國...
只是在這邊遇見的台灣人...
大部份人都有種崇洋的心態...
甚至只要是美國的...就一定被認定是好的...
我也看過不少..為了想留下來...
而married to 美國人的男生或女生...
其實不太想說什麼...
也不想鄙視他們...
只是...有時還是忍不住覺得...
異國的東西...真的比我們好嗎...
其實我也不知道...
但另一方面...
美國的一大優點...
卻是它們願意接受各個國家的文化,民族...
來強大它們的經濟..
只要你有能力...就一定有人願意花錢在你身上...
而我在許多留學生身上看到的...
不是他們願意去增加自己的能力而有辦法留在美國...
而是他們更想要尋求簡單的方式...
留在一個...他們也許無法靠自己生存的異國裡...

There's more to them than meets the eye.
It's really ture.
See a guy doesn't mean know a guy.
The life is full of lies.
And people lie because they want to.
So.....
Just don't believe what others say may be a good choice for the rest of my life.

It was supposed to have a Well-logging annual seminar next Wednesday.
And I was supposed to give a presentation at that time.
However, the seminar was rescheduled to yesterday.
And I didn't know the reschedule meeting until this Wednesday.
A little weird thing is, I didn't feel so terrible or scared.
I did present my research yesterday.
Some people said I did a good job.
I really didn't think so though.
I guess it is because I did a lot of rehearsal for this seminar even though I didn't know the rescheduled thing.
Now I just want to relax myself since this seminar is really important to me.
Thanks God it is finished and everything not goes bad.

Yesterday afternoon, on the way to my school I saw a stray dog dead in the feeder of highway 288.
So shocked, but no felt sadly at that time.
However, this morning again I saw the same dog was still lying down the same place.
Instead of whole dead body, a flat piece which was already crushed by some car almost broke my heart.
So terrible feeling comes with me whole day, even till now.
But it was not enough.
When I was driving back to my apartment, I saw another dog frozen in the street.
I even did not know if that dog is dead or still alive.
Unfortunately, the dog laid down in the high-speed street, and every car was trying to avoid crushing that dog.
I could not do anything about the dog.
And I cannot help thinking of another crushed dog's body all the time.
I feel so sad about these dogs and start feeling angry at their owners.
If you have a pet, please please do love your pet and take really good care of your pet.
If you have a pet, please please do cherish your pet as your family, your close relative, or your close friend.
Don't let them stray in the street, don't let them lose the life cruelly.
Otherwise, please do not raise a pet at the beginning.
If you have a pet and do love your pet a lot,
you will feel so great to have another family in a different way.
I do have a dog in my country.
I and my families taught him a lot of things.
We all paid a lot of attentions to that dog.
We love him and treat him as my little brother.
And he really is my little brother cause he accompanies my family all the time.
We can feel he loves my family via his behavior.
Even though he is a little greedy of food, even though he is sometimes a little ugly in different way,
he is smart and really my little brother.
If you have a pet, please treat your pet well.
Not only just for you pet, but also for you, for the society, and for the world.
You are responsible for your pet as soon as you decide to have your pet.
You do have a family as soon as you have that pet.

Why, why, why
Oh ooh ohh

There you are, in a darkened room
And you're all alone, looking out the window
Your heart is cold and lost the will to love
Like a broken arrow
Here I stand in the shadows
In the shadows
Come to come, come to me
Can't you see that

Nobody wants to be lonely
Nobody wants to cry
My body's longing to hold you
So bad it hurts inside
Time is precious and it's slipping away
And I've been waiting for you all of my life (ohh)
Nobody wants to be lonely
So why (why), why don't you let me love you

Why (ooh ohh yeah), why (oh why), why

Ooh ooh, yeah
Can you hear my voice, do you hear my song
It's a seranade, so your heart can find me, ohh
And suddenly you're flying down the stairs
Into my arms, baby, ohh

Before I start going crazy
Going crazy, ohh
Run to me
Run to me
Cause I'm dying...

Nobody wants to be lonely
Nobody wants to cry (I don't wanna cry)
My body's longing to hold you (I'm longing to hold you)
So bad it hurts inside
Time is precious and it's slipping away
And I've been waiting for you all of my life (ohh)
Nobody wants to be lonely
So why

Why, why don't you let me love you
I wanna feel you need me
Feel you need me
Just like the air you're breathing
Breathing, I need you here in my life

Don't walk away, don't walk away
Don't walk alway, don't walk away
No, no, no, no...

Nobody wants to be lonely
Nobody wants to cry...yeah yeah

Nobody wants to be lonely (yeah ohh ooh)
Nobody wants to cry (nobody wants to cry)
My body's longing to hold you (is longing to hold you)
So bad it hurts inside (hurts inside)
Time is precious and it's slipping away
And I've been waiting for you all of my life (ohh)
Nobody wants to be lonely
So why (why), why don't you let me love you
Let me love you...

Nobody wants to be lonely
Nobody wants to cry (nobody wants to cry...)
My body's longing to hold you (I'm longing to hold you)
So bad it hurts inside (so hurt inside)
Time is precious and it's slipping away
And I've been waiting for you all of my life
Nobody wants to be lonely
So why (why), why don't you let me love you

Why (why), let me love you
Why don't you let me love you
Why, love you, let me love you

Why (why)

上週六,我參加了Ascension Catholic Church所辦的一個concert...
教堂的阿姨們請來了基督教的一個樂團來主唱...
我也參加了...並且在裡面幫忙...
Concert真的很不錯...
我還蠻後悔沒有帶我的朋友一起來聽...
我相信如果我帶他們了...
他們也許會被裡面的音樂,內容感動...
我不是一個很愛,或很會傳教的天主教徒...
相反的...我只是一個在背後付出...私底下幫忙的人...
因為我覺得信仰是個人的...
雖然...我也看過了很多很神奇的事發生在我左右...
甚至在我身上...
但...我還是相信...主如果要人們信仰祂...
祂會讓人們去信的...
別人去勸...去傳教...去說道理...
都沒有比主所做的事來得有用...
所以...我有點不太喜歡基督教的作風...
有點過於實質,過於強勢...且過於偏激...
但不可否認的是...這方法...有時讓很多人相信...
讓很多人願意團結...
這也許也是基督教漸漸比天主教還要壯大,強盛...
但對我而言...信仰並不是比賽...
不是你今天看見了多少神跡...
做了多少為主的工作...
或得了主多少的恩賜...
才信仰的...
所以...對於很多過於誇張的見證...
我也總是有點點抱持著保留的態度...
畢竟...我們只是人...都會有誇張事情的potential..
However...在這場concert..
我的確看到了一個見證...
我的見證...不是concert裡有多少人受感動...
也不是concert中的小短片見證...讓我有多少感動...
因為這些對我而言..已不是第一次遇見過了...
而是...
在concert最終時...抽獎的結果...
讓我有種...主正在說話的感覺...
因為我是工作人員之一...所以我知道concert並沒有在抽獎時作弊...
第一...獎品只是個CD...不貴...我們也沒有必要做這事...
第二...所有抽獎的籤,...都是為了鼓勵大家寫下response card...
而在concert快結束的最後一刻....
把所收集的response card當成抽獎的籤...
五名中的成員...我沒有一個認識...
只是...第一名的人...是在concert中...唯一一個show up...
希望大家為她朋友帶禱的人...
她朋友在concert的隔天..會去其它地方做手術還是看病..(我有點忘了...)
所以大家為了她朋友祈禱了...
而中獎的最後一名...
卻是一名教友...
中獎的是教友很正常...
畢竟當天參加concert的大部份人...都是教友...
但...這名教友很特別...
因為...如果沒有這教友...
也許就沒有這場concert...
是因為她無意間聽到這個團體的歌曲...
覺得很美...而forward給我們教堂的另一個阿姨...
才因此造成了這場音樂會...
當下有人覺得很戲劇化...
然後對我來說...並不會...
雖然我不知道主想在當下表達什麼...
但我相信...祂把CD給了第一名中獎的人...
是表達祂聽到了我們的祈禱...
至於祂會怎麼做...我們並不知道...也不能預期...
而我也相信...祂把CD給了最後一名中獎的阿姨...
是要讓大家知道...
因為這阿姨愛上了讚美祂的歌曲...而無私地分享...
才造成這concert...
那...祂也願意無私地分享這讚美的歌曲...
給這教堂內的阿姨...

主做很多事...
不論結果是好或是壞....
我相信都有祂的原因...
我不想去猜...也無法猜測...
但...如果我有聽見...看見祂的話...
我會去做的...
只是...
我們不常去聆聽祂的聲音...
不常去注意祂的表達...
所以我們失去了很多東西...
只是...
我們偶而才注視了祂的存在...
我們不經意才聽到了祂的聲音...
而因此...我們得到了更多東西...

失去的...也許只是物質的虧損...
得到的...卻是無比豐盛的神糧...


ps:
我從未寫下見證...
是因為我從不認為我有資格去做這事...
我並不夠好...好到可以做...
今天寫下的...
只是我看見的...
只是因為偶然又收到一個教堂阿姨的email..
上面提到...寫下我所感受的...
所以我寫下...分享給...我不認識的你們...