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退伍了

唉 船不開 海浪太大 都退伍了 還要被管制


我好想要見他 這幾個月 我和他過的很不好 一點小事就吵 很多時後是我的不對

i have been thinking.. wat can i do.. or wat should i have to improve to make things rite...,

i learned a lot from my.. last.. previous.. relationship..


以前因為一個人在國外十幾年 所以很依賴感情 很害怕寂寞...... terrified of lonesome..i guess i am just very scared to be alone ...每當看到朋友都有親戚或家人陪他們就很羨慕

所以對感情很依賴　之前的失敗　給我了很多的想法

現在這個讓我很想把我的一切都給了他　
　這一年也真的苦了他　都是我的不對　sometimes i act like a jerk.. a nver grown-up child..

對不起我的寶貝　我愛你　真的很愛　我會花一輩子好好的經營它　我跟我爸一樣　是那種會把全部的心力都花在家的　我愛你　真的很愛


truly love you.. til eternity.. it might sound silly ..but dats really wat i have it in mind now... i will work it out.. make it better and better..believe in me..

終於要結束了

不知為何還是很悶 大概家中還有很多事都還無法解決+ things between him and me..i dun wanna pretend nothing going on



加上心煩受氣 也不知道要找誰講

its not like i have no friends.. ..

they r all str8 ppl. and there r just some certain topic i cant bring up ....
right now..i feel there is like a big gap between me and him.. i dun even wanna share my feeling with him...

he is alrdy under lots of stress...plus.. just we fight all the time.. i am very sick of it.. it drives me buts.. everytime we fight.. i feel like my head is gonna explore.. heart is bleeding...

lately i notice that our topics are very selective.. there r just some certain things we cant even get into very deep of it..we avoid it...


sometimes i just feel.. there r too much crap inside of my mind...i wanna let them out.. just dunno the way to..


everything is gonna be ok... i wrote on the writing board in my room.. to try to... remind.. and convince myself.. everything is gonna be ok....

these days.... i have tried very hard to convince myself..everything is gonna be ok.. be alrite.. it will come to the end eventually...

welll .. the army thing is. yes...

but not my relationship...


i dunno wat to do about it... i am tired........................................i guess i really a love expert to give me some advice....sigh..

have 11 days left.... not too long.. not too short..

now i am very worried about to find a good job that fits me..

now .. i am experiencing some problems w/ my honey.. i dunno how to fix it...

i dun wanna repeat the same mistake i made from last relationship...it was very painful... when i ended it myself..................................................................................................................................................................................................

i dunno if its becuz i dont have the courage to move on.. i guess i am just scared to get hurt.. he is a amazing guy..its like 95% out of 100 percentale...very nice.. handsome... responsible..rich...caring.. and sweet...

sometimes i am thinking am i still in a dream.. dun wanna wake up..

he deserves happiness.. and i am not so sure if i am the one that can provide that.......


i have given him so much pain and troubles....................................................................................................


i should be single.... i dunno even if i wanna be single or not....i am just tired.. and so is he....

was listening..梁靜茹的分手快樂 居然流眼淚......

been thinking wat i am gonna do once i finish this stupid army service......


attend to millions of wild dancing party... dats for sure lol


ummmmmmm... 也想跟我的小cordy好好的走走 當兵後很少陪他


陪陪家人和男友吧 這一年來辛苦他們了 尤其是男友 之前還常開玩笑 我們一起去vegas結婚

剛看了 ex寄給我的email


我們以前的有一隻狗叫lexy


後來得了cancer then just heard.. he is gone.. gone to heaven......................sigh......

















i miss him a lot. afterall.. i was raising him for 8 yrs.. my cute son..........

dunno why.. just.. feels like my brain is gonna explore.. damn it.. i need sex.. need to have a f@cking wild hot sex.. cant hold it anymore..

heard this stuipd silly ton-yi island used to have the. .. wats it called? the prostition house??(妓院)

then do they have the male one? lol sigh. i am so sick of using hands lol.........i need my behalf. sigh oh well.. he may not be interested anyway..............

在這荒島　什麼都沒有　網咖最多　也不想出去走走　

最近迷上了facebook.. well.. 嗯本以為是給想找學校朋友的網站　蠻方便的　但後來發現　哈　不只可以找到朋友　還看到很多帥哥猛男　很養眼　還有一些小遊戲　

終於剩下三個多星期了


在軍中 真的見識到什麼是各式各樣的人都有.. well most of them.都是不好的 虧他們還一天到晚做一些蠢事讓國民相信國軍等等的事情 每次看那極度愚蠢的莒光園地只能說 國軍太做做了 pathetic.. dats the only word i can say to them..

最近愛情也到了瓶頸 以前那一段愛情 稿的自己像條狗一樣 不知ㄝ 不知道是不是對愛情感到累了 在想 還是單身好了 反正這十幾年也都是自己一個人

好累

lol.. so screw the army thing...

剛看到朋友的facebook在講10/31有同志遊行 唉 好想去阿 why am i keeping missing the fun thing? >.<

seriously.. screw all these stupid brainless army thing. ...

i even would miss Madonna dancing pary at Jump...........damn it..