萍心静气 ....real me living in a real world...

今天是我的30岁生日
哈哈感觉好像在过21岁生日一样
其实我从来都不忌讳和别人说我的年纪
今天我去申请健身俱乐部会员
刚好年龄栏我还能最后一次填上29岁
哈哈~ 我还和Ally说这是我最后一次写这个数字
我还满期待30后的日子
期待事业的另一个起跑点
可能过一些时候就会为人妻
拥有自己的孩子
虽然还不确定婚姻对象
我想结婚与否
结婚只是一个形式
一个阶段
如果没遇到会让我倾心的人
结婚也没意思
我很满意现状
我还是会把握住每个日子
体验生命
毕竟人只活那么一次
现在开始觉得自己对生活的要求
不是单单谈物质
而是活着的意义

我前些时候无意间读了一个级比我小一两岁
就是in her late twenties的一位女性的部落格
感觉她对自己好像在self pity
觉得自己为何还没成家
就觉得这样活着好痛苦哦
与其在那里觉得凄凉哀怨
不如想想如何活得更好
有时在想这样的女人
有点在浪费时间
可能是性格上的差异
可能她是想得到一些慰藉
才会写那些沮丧的词句

30岁后的我
更加清楚自己要什么
也更安逸
祝我生日快乐！！

我的2010年目标如下：

1. 每个星期一至五每天上健身房一小时
2. 设立美妆部落格
3. 设立美妆教学学院
4. 完成海外的一些工作及目标
5. 到亚洲地区宣教至少一次
6. 认真考虑终身伴侣

It's that part of the time to review the year which had passed and the new year that i am stepping or now already in...much apprehension i would say when im at this very junction of my life every year.

Im pretty much used to having to shoulder the financial responsibility at home as its has been 2 years since dad had the stroke condition. And im glad that God's grace and protection has been upon me and my family throughout all  these time. And i really wanna thank God for His provision as i am still able to enjoy some short vacation here this year to Taipei and Beijing...

Wanna also thank God for my work...opportunities and favor with myy vendors and so far they had been entrusting almost every of their jobs and events into my hands and i will strive to perform eeven better this year! i will be giving u all a token soon,,,thanks for all the faith n trust you have in me all these while...

And also to all my personal clients who had been such a joy to work with that i never felt like im working but instead i had forged some friendship as we worked together, Thanks for entrusting me your most important day of your life into my hands and giving me full liberty to stay creative...

I wanna thank my mum for being the pillar of the family and that im able to work in peace knowing that everything is in good hands at home, especially i know taking care of dad is not an easy task..
Thank you for not giving up even though i know you were at your brim of break down a year ago. Thank you for even encouraging me to venture regionally for my work... and i will do my best..

I wanna thank my friend especially people like Joyce and Victor...you never know the amount of fun n joy you had brought to my life and i am eternally grateful to you both...and im glad that you all have been around for me through all my ups and downs!! Never ever did we have a dull moment when we are together. Wanna thank June for being the person always encouraging me to keep fit n healthy... I enjoyed all the exercising sessions and the chilling out at your place that we had together...We both know what we had been through to find baack this friendship .. thank you for being so understanding and allowing me to be imperfect..

Alec and Lec Sao...thank you for all the advices and always been like a bro and dasao to me... and the friendship which i would say is one of the most unique one.... coz we do not need to spend alot of time together to feel that connection.... kam sia very much for all that you are..

Thank God for my  Pastor.... Pastor Zhuang... thank you for staying strong in the midst of your family situation and know that we will keep praying for full recovery for Tyler. Thank you for all the opportunities to serve you and the zone...You are my hero!

Thank God for Belle and Ally and Dee...Belle for always been there and thought about me when u wanna have fun,,,Thank you for all the moments of praying and soaking in the presence of God, especcially those times we had before bv practice... You always reminded us what it meant to serve God and worshipping God in Spirit and in truth...You have been  like a pillar to me and an example for me to follow..
Wanna thaank God for Ally for all the faith n trust you had in me and all the opportunities to serve God... and times when u spoke words of encouragement at moments which they were needed to get on with life..  You couldn;t imagine how important they are...even till now..
And Dee who never failed to bring joy into my life and always been so straight forward when i needed a word or advice...your words are always to the point and so practical...

I wanna also thank God for Est, Sher, Feli, Shan, Elyn , Karen, Gie, Joshua, Pat, even though due to our busy-ness, we seldom have chance to meet up, i still wanna thank you all for the constant love and friendship! And the smses, msn-ing...meet ups from time to time has never failed to warm my heart...Thank you!!!!

The last person i wanna thank is Jesus...Thank You for Your patience this year...i think You must had been super duper patient with me this year... and thank You for not giving up on me coz i know at times You really wanted to for some of the things i did. Im really sorry! Thank You for still being with me despite of my imperfection...Thank You for Your peace and provision this year which is greatly felt...and manifested...

Nothing and no written works can express fully about my heartfelt gratitude to all. Just wanna say that its my privilage to know all of you and to have you as a part of my life...

Just came back from dinner with Elyn, Shaun, Shan and a few others who came together to celebrate Wuay Boon's birthday.

On the way back, me, Elyn and Shaun dropped by the bookstore as i wanted to get some books to read for my coming trip as i had quite a bit of time while transiting in between flights at the aiports...

Shaun recommended me this book "The Last Lecture" by Randy Pausch, who was a computer science professor at Carnegie Mellon, who gave a lecture which he did not imagine it to be the last though he was diagnosed with a terminal disease and he was left with a short time to live.

As i read the first few pages.... i can't help but to keep on flipping the pages and am inspired....

The lecture he gave was about "Really achieving your childhood dream." About the importance of overcoming obstacles, of enabling the dreams of others and seizing every moment...

In his book, he actually mentioned that he wil be taking down this lecture in video for his children to be reminded of him in years to come... about the values he wants them to know as well as what kind of person their dad was...

As i searched online, i found the videos...

i did not managed to catch the Fred Perry show on thursday after i did makeup for all 8 models, as i need to rush off to cellgroup. However lo and behold, today as i logged onto msn, it was on the news feed... really like their collection as Fred Perry celebrates their 100th birthday! Happy Birthday once again!