萍心静气 ....real me living in a real world...

This week during cg, we did the DISC test. To be honest, it's actuallly my first time doing the test, and i am not surprised that i am a high I and S, all along i knew i am a IS even without doing the test. It also revealed that by nature when i am alone, i am more inclined to the S side. Which i must agreed that i am quite mellow and deep in thoughts when i am left alone.

But what made me ponder is that my graph is above the line, one of my cg member told me, it's quite unusual to have such profile, it may means that the person is tying to be everything (DISC) or have split personality and sometimes a person with such profile may not withstand stress at any given situation. The usual graph will for most people will be some qualities to fall below the line.

Wow...this made me ponder the whole night, i began to reflect about myyself...asking and praying to God about it... Then God began to reveal to me...

My D-ness is although not high, but when i am songleading, i stand on the authority given to my by God to take leadership, alot of friends tell me that they had not seen my D-ness until they saw me songleading in chinese service...

My I-ness is when i need to be involved in a cg or even when i am at work and i need to socialise..
then my extrovert side will develop. When i am with people, i want everyone to enjoy themselves at any event and have a great time.

My S-ness shows most of the time..epecially when it's a matter of bringing comfort or convenience for others. Joyce and Sher said that i am too strict on myself and put the welfare of others always before self. That i must also learn to love myself more... learn to appreciate myself. Sometimes too easy-going miight not be good as people can easily take advantage of you. But i do hope that i put myself in other people's shoes, giving a benefit of doubt even when obviously that they are in the wrong.. i believe everyone is responsible for what they do, praise God if it's well done and great, but if not, there must be reasons for them to decide on a wrong move or decision.

As for my C-ness....I think i not a very c person, but my cgl mentioned that i am quite a C person when it comes to serious things. But i thinnk my C-ness was mostly discovered when i was working in a wedding planning company...However as a person, this area still have lots of room to be trained and developed. As a business peson, i am more macro, so now i am trying to go micro..

Anyway, God revealed to me while i am praying that the goal is to be more Christlike. Jesus Himself is a high in every area, DISC. Whats most important is to have the fruits of the Holy Spirit cultivated in us no matter what kind of temperament we have by nature..

So i guessed i am on the right track... most importantly, who we are today is attributed to what i had been through in life...and i guessed all the experiences shaped us to who we are now... and i believed nothing is wasted because we wil be even stronger to withstand greater challenges and endearvours ahead!