A Lazybear's Stories【幸福小女人的故事】

Name: Jean
First Impression: Tall, soft, good, PRETTY! VERY!
Second Impression: She is not as innocent as I think
How did we meet? 
She came for registration for the course. Her mother was complaining that Jean should get a higher scholarship than just the 20%. I was looking at her and realized that she was concerned about her mother's reaction, so I kept quiet. Otherwise I will tell the mother, aunty ah, she study hard is because she did that for her good future and most importantly, for herself. You should be proud instead of discouranging her not to study so hard since it doesn't help her to earn a higher scholarship. Trust me, student like Jean will be able to excel in future. 


What makes me blog about her? 
I wonder why the youngster nowadays think only their generation can be computer savvy? She acted the same way like Weng Yan when she knew that I have a blog. I can't help to wonder why does she think that she is fat? If she is, then myself.. err... I think I should totally stop eating now. Jean? 

Want to know what conversation was?

Lazybear  says: i blogged about weng yan 
J e a n says: u have a blog??? 
Lazybear  says: of course. old ppl cannot have blog ah? 
J e a n says: what's ur site?!!? 
J e a n says: no tell me laa 
Lazybear  says: err…. 
Lazybear  says: will give you tomorrow 
Lazybear  says: ok? 
J e a n says: not ok 
J e a n says: i want nowwwwww 
Lazybear  says: aiyah.. nothing to read... 
Lazybear  says: why you act like weng yan one? 
Lazybear  says: she did the same when she found out that i got a blog 
J e a n says: nothing to read then why u want blog for lei 
Lazybear  says:  err… 
Lazybear  says: yah oh... 
Lazybear  says: tomorrow lar  

Conversation goes on

 Lazybear  says: clever girl 
J e a n says: hahha.. don praise me lei. later i kembang 
Lazybear  says: aiyah, you should kembang, so thin 
Lazybear  says: but... got tummy 
J e a n says: im so fat la! 
Lazybear  says: cannot take side view photos when you are wearing bikini 
Lazybear  says: aiyah, trust me, your future husband would want to feel you than to feel the bones lar... 
J e a n says: but but but but... fat... 
J e a n says: tummy is natural la 
J e a n says: everyone also got 
J e a n says: hahaha 
Lazybear  says: then go and take up some exercise and have healthy diet 
Lazybear  says: you are not FAT 
J e a n says: photographer don let me hide lei 
J e a n says: im fat la omg! 
Lazybear  says: ok, you are fat 
Lazybear  says: jean, i think you should eat less, you are so fat 
Lazybear  says: fatter than the first time when i met you 
Lazybear  says: YOU ARE FAT 
J e a n says: yes.. thank u! 
Lazybear  says: pengsan 
Lazybear  says: if you are fat.. then what do i consider? 
J e a n says: u just nice 
Lazybear  says: ah?! 
Lazybear  says: i don't understand you ppl lar 
Lazybear  says: i should be one who is shouting, I AM FAT LAR, OMG 
J e a n says: but u look just nice 
J e a n says: not fat 
J e a n says: haha 
Lazybear  says: then you? 
J e a n says: i am fat 
Lazybear  says: pengsan again…  

Is been a long time ever since I posted my last blog. One year... yes, is ONE YEAR! I have finally start to blog again. The power that urge me to start blogging again is the kids currently studying in Taylor's - UniSA programme. Who are these kids? They are Nick, Jean, Weng Yan, Szu Jane. I wanted to introduce them one by one by blogging about them... but I am too lazy tonight. 
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Sometimes, you really need someone or something to give you a push, to keep you moving...  *_* yawn... Don't worry, I have already got a topic what to write for tomorrow. At least I have started to blog again, right? so...  GOOD NIGHT!

Porcupines are animals best known for theirs coat of sharp spines which protects them from predators. When threatened, a porcupine will raise its quills. This is the piloerection reflex, the same as the goose bump reflex in human.

I feel like I am a porcupine now and have spines on me. I am trying to protect myself from being hurt again. 10 years ago, I was hurt by 2 of my very best friends. Sigh... It takes me years to forget and forgive. Ever since then, I have phobia hearing "BEST FRIEND".

10 years later, I met a friend whom I thought I can trust. I shared my laughters and sadness with this friend of mine. I trusted this friend so much until I forgot the incident 10 years ago. I told myself, No, this friend will not hurt you because this friend promised you. My care for this friend grows even more when I knew about his/her story. Therefore, I hide my spines and accept this friend with my heart. I was afraid that my spines would hurt this friend of mine if I don't hide them. I know this friend needs loves from friends.

However...... I never know that this friend actually...... I am not sure what word should I use to describe......Hurt? Betrayed? Lied?

This friend didn't do anything wrong towards me but towards anther two persons, which for me, is a LIE. Because of that, this friend lost my trust, which for me, is a Hurt. I tried my best to forgive, which I did. I tried my best to forget what had happened, which I failed. I told this friend, I choose to write your mistake on the sand and let the wind blow it away, I forgive you. I now need time to forget, because there is no way that I can write my memories on the sand and let the wind blow it away. I wish I can.

I am being very rude to this friend recently. I know why I behave like this and I do not like being rude, but I can't help. I think is a "piloerection reflex " for me. I think this friend knows what happen. This friend just do not want to ask why and what happen. When looking at this friend sometimes, I feel sorry for this friend and myself. I feel like hugging this friend again and tell, I miss you my friend. I didn't do it because I know, everything has changed ever since what he/she had done.

I am feeling bad for hurting this friend now. How I wish I can keep my spines and love this friend of mine again......?