。LechatrougE。

Hearing about that hyper girl made me realized that I haven't been hyper for a long time.
Not only do I stop jumping up and down when I am happy, I even stop being loud.


I need my safe space back! 

響應KK的桌面曝光活動，我是人數稍微少了點的Windows Users一員。


覺得自己桌面東西還可以再少一點～

I apologize in advance for the language i used in this entry. You have no idea how long I been holding this in, and how good it feels that I finally letting it out. Saying thing in public does make me feel better. I just might do it again.....




Fuck, if something bad is happening on Campus, everybody turn to me and ask if it's Dunsmuir.
If there is a party, everybody turns to me and ask if it's Dunsmuir.
If the residents don't like this house enough to respect this place, I cannot love this place for them. No matter how I try to think of this place as my home, I cannot stop feeling ashamed about this place.


I try my best to do my job.
I do my best to brighten up the situation.
The situation is not so bad, honestly.
But WHO THE FUCK WILL BELIEVE THAT?


So FUCK YOU STOP LOOKING AT ME WHEN THINGS GO WRONG!
FUCK YOU DON'T GIVE ME THAT PITY LOOK!


AND HONESTLY I HATE YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING, SO JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!
WHATEVER I SAY DOESN'T CONCERN YOU SO DON'T BOTHER GETTING MORE STUFF OUTTA ME!


I am losing my energy to smile. FUCK!

Starting a new job is always challenging.


At this sensitive moment, I can feel that  there are people who only care about their own stuff, and worse yet, 只等著看好戲. When issues or incidents come up, they always give me that "what are you going to do" look, and a sympathy-disguised smirk. ...Thank you, that's not supportive at all, and screw you, I will kick your face in one of these days.


On the other hand, there are people who are caring and helpful. They are willing to work for the best result, and they will do everything in their power to help you with your new job. I am really surprised that there are people so dedicated to this job.


 Justice, although gets mentioned a lot, is rare in real life. And I respect these people who follow through with it a lot!


And I am lucky to have someone watching out for signs of my stress, and making sure that I do get sleep at night.


At the end, I am responsible for my own job. And that's what I should focus on right now, before the school starts.....=="