This song is dedicated to those who are on the road to recovery.
Chris Martin rocks, his wife is still the luckiest woman in the world, in my opinion at least. lol. Fix You.

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down on your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
If you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down on your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down on your face
And I...

Tears stream down on your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I...

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

If only we can go back to that age whereby we can
shameless hover in airports waiting to send off or welcome idols. lol.

If only we can go back to that age whereby we can
chiong kbox from 11 to 2 followed by random dinner sessions talking rubbish like we have all the time in this world to waste.

If only we can go back to that age whereby we can
just decide to go for a mayday concert and immediately go online to buy concert and air tickets.

If only we can go back to that age whereby we can
like random guys and then waste our time with those random guys playing the so called games.

If only we can go back to that age whereby responsibilities were unheard of and we can do anything we want.

If only we can go back to that age whereby I still have perfect skin and a perfect skinny body.

If only we can go back to that age whereby we are called sweet young things.

Aging is a scary and yet inevitable process that we have to face in life I guess.

Age brings us reponsibility and yet nonchalancy.
I no longer really care about what others think of me,
Not like I really care alot in the past though.
But when I say don't care, it really means don't care at all. 
I think most of us are in this stage now.
DON'T CARE AT ALL STAGE.

The reason why we are hanging on to a sucky job is not because we care.
It is just because, at least for me, I need the salary to pay my neverending instalments etc.
Lesson learnt, I will never sign up for instalments again unless its a do it or DIE situation.
With age comes experience I guess. lol.

Hopefully, my folly moments will be washed away with age too.

Anyways this is a really random entry.
Chrismas, I hope you rock this year!

nagging fear.

what's gonna happen will happen.

anyways there are more to worry now but i am not worrying.

monday, if it was the old me, probably a little bit pressured.
but with this new me, totally can't be bothered.
people are just getting worried over too nonsensical rubbish.

at the end of the day, when you're alive, you can still anticipate for tomorrow's harvest.

The world is upside down.
Too much is happening around me.
I set off for work everyday lifelessly.
It's not that I hate my work.
I just hate repeating this mundane stuff.
I wonder what is happening around me.

I want to go but yet I can't go.
I don't know what you want.
I wonder if it is real in the end.

"You mean the world to me"

How much weight do these 6 words carry?

Stand up straight, don't slouch.
Drink more plain water instead of soft drinks.
Stop eating junk food.
Watch less tv and read more books.
Work out more instead of lying on bed all the time.
Don't get depressed.

YMTWTM too.

There are some things in life you just can't explain.
It is like a part of you that you can't cut off just because of money, distance or age.
Maybe love is one of the thing I am referring to.

It makes you overlook, makes you blind perhaps.
It makes you want to give more even though you are not sure what you can get back.
It is a complicated thing really.

Really hard to explain. I should stop watching dramas really.
I am back in Singapore, feeling hot like hell.

They always say, you don't need to have many friends, just a few good ones will do.

At this moment in time, if not for them aka tsj, I can't do it by myself.

Thanks T and J, although I still have no idea who is T and who really is J!! lol.
Hugz. sistaz 4eva!

I know I am at some dead end when I keep logging into this yam site to blog.

I mean, zzzzz.

And yesterday I realised the Snow Wolf Lake cd is MISSING. Damn it. So I only ripped 2 soundtracks which I did not even remember to transfer into my Ipod. So technically speaking, I am losing it somehow when I keep forgetting to do things. I pride myself on my excellent memory but these days, I just keep forgetting and ignoring things/tasks/jobs. It's like my world has stopped at this moment. I know it will move on again soon but at this moment, it has stopped.

I just need to be a little bit more clear headed. Tough man.

People shouldn't risk talking to me in real life today, I will definitely snap at any moment.

 

Well I think I am officially declaring myself off chinese songs, except for Mayday, Sodagreen and a few random older singers' songs, and probably some other rock bands.

I have less than 5 chinese artistes in my Ipod and I don't miss chinese songs at all.

I was trying to rip some of my old cds mainly soundtracks and wow, I think I have been living in my own world for too long. Damn, the soundtracks were actually performed by top notch artistes and I have never noticed it. 

There are 3 soundtracks that I ripped today.

Romeo and Juliet, 1996. The performers that I never actually noticed includes
EVERCLEAR (I only know of them in 1999)
Stina Nordnstam (well I heard of her recently only too)
These 2 are top notch okay. lol.

Bridget Jones Diary, The Edge of Reason (with hugh grant and collin firth), 2004.
This soundtrack is even more ridiculously unnoticed by me.
I bought it initially for Jamie Cullen's Everlasting Love because I love the way it sounded when Bridget ran in the rain to look for Mark. Well it's still a song I like in the soundtrack. But as of today, I noticed there is actually AMY WINEHOUSE, BEYONCE, MARY J BLIGE and many others. I mean seriously, why wasn't I paying attention to all these other great artistes. lol.

Anyway, I am also ripping Snow Wolf Lake today. This soundtrack really rocks. I love Jacky Cheung's voice in the songs. A pity I never watch the stage play before.

Well okay, damn random entry for the day, Well, and I really wish September will like END SOON! I have a love-hate relationship with September! But I wish that it will end soon!

Once again, thank you LTY for your blessings. I will try to pray for the best. Plus, I think I need to be a little bit more patient with my mum. Sigh. I mean I am trying hard, but guess I just have to try harder. :(

It's just hard to concentrate these days when you have something on your mind.
The brain just can't seem to concentrate. I guess this is something I have to do.

If I don't do it, reality will never set back and I will never see clearly.
It's the last mad thing I'm allowing myself to do before I turned 30!!

MADNESS.

For the first time in my life today, I felt like I was the most stupid person on earth.
Also, I felt like the most selfish person too for saying out those few exact words.

Everything happens for a reason, my life will still goes on.

Gynn is really looking out for me.
Thank you.

damn, i love this song.
sky by josh radin featuring ingrid michaelson.

I woke
Dreaming we had broke
Dreaming you left me
For someone new

And you cried
Drying those brown eyes
Crying you're sorry
Sorry won't do, but...

This is the way I need to wake
I wake to you
And you never left me
All that I'd dreamt had been untrue
Open my eyes
I see sky

Oh, oh, oh woah, you know
The way to keep me on my toes
I, I, I will be fine
Just say you'll stay forever mine
Till we fall asleep tonight

Last night
We had a great fight
I fell asleep in a horrible state
Then dreamt
That you loved my best friend
My heart would not mend
Seemed it was fake, but

This is the way I need to wake
I wake to you
And you never left me
All that I'd dreamt had been untrue
Open my eyes
I see sky

Oh, oh, oh woah, you know
The way to keep me on my toes
I, I, I will be fine
Just say you'll stay forever mine
'Til we fall asleep tonight

Sometimes I forget to
Love you like I should
But I'd never leave you
No, I never would
I never would

Oh, oh, oh woah, you know
The way to keep me on my toes
I, I, I will be fine
Just say you'll stay forever mine

Oh, oh, oh woah, you know
The way to keep me on my toes
I, I, I will be fine
Just say you'll stay forever mine
'Til we fall asleep tonight
'Til we fall asleep tonight

Love these lines.

I'd love to hear you say
anything but silence
you're unaware that I'm so tired
And I've tried to understand
am I the only one who cares here?
I can't let you, let you disappear

Erin McCarley -- Hello/Goodbye

I'm not tired. I just love these few lines.

Currently watching Grey's Anatomy S5, not everyone can be Derek and Meredith.
True love really overcomes all obstacles. Have faith in what you do.
Even if faith is gone, it will come back some day. You just have to believe.

You know the world is strange when what you have been wishing for suddenly came true.
Not finally but suddenly because you never expect it to come true anyway.

You stand at the crossroad thinking.

You suddenly realised it's really not that easy to drop and go as you have thought you might do so earlier on.

What is holding you back? Since the world is already upside down, one wrong decision wouldn't make it any better or worse anyway.

I need answers.

p/s: Don't worry, I'm perfectly okay.

Dido - Quiet Times.
Featured on Grey's Anatomy Season 5 Episode 9.

I love Grey's Anatomy.

Quoting Ashin the Sweetheart (according to JJJ) :

人們說的荒唐  卻是我的  心中的天堂

時間不等人，如果不放肆的闖，
那麼有些事情，真的是「現在不作，一輩子都不會作了」。


才子说的话，过然一针见血。我听到了。

She said I think I'll go to Boston...
I think I'll start a new life,
I think I'll start it over, where no one knows my name,
I'll get out of California, I'm tired of the weather, (this part should be Singapore)
I think I'll get a lover and fly em out to Spain... (England would be lovely too)
I think I'll go to Boston,
I think that I'm just tired
I think I need a new town, to leave this all behind...
I think I need a sunrise, I'm tired of the sunset,
I hear it's nice in the Summer, some snow would be nice... oh yeah.


I love this song. Boston by Augustana. Depicts my mood right now.

I think it is really time to get some actions going on.

Jobwise, same old story,  it never gets better. Just have to make do.

October, well it should be exciting at least thinking about it now. A visit to Laos with some volunteer work, I really hope this can be fulfilled. A visit to Sydney as excess baggage together with niu, tagging alongside Ashley, hope this can be fulfiled to. Bondi Beach!!!! haha

Okay but then again, we should really do meaningful stuff in life. With every passing minute, we are getting closer to death. Something I caught from Twilight. Really true.

Build good karma, have a happier life!

It is offcially August. GOSH.

I have not been checking the horoscope pages dilligently. What's gonna happen, will happen yeah.

I mean, I can say I will be looking forward to D.N.A at the end of the month. Really wondering what are the young kids up to these days. They can actually afford to fly to Taipei for 4 nights of concerts. I mean I am seriously dead penniless now. Shudder at the figure in my bank account, if it can still be considered a figure. At this age, this shouldn't be my worry.

Sigh, life goes on well. JIAN KANG SHI FU, I kept telling myself.

Well, 4 more months to the new year. Repeat, time really flies!

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