A Lazybear's Stories【幸福小女人的故事】

Right【权利】

Mon, 21 May 2007 22:38:30 +0800

People, especially Malaysian often not willing to voice out they point of views eventhough they are grievance (i hope i use the right word) against something / somebody. They always think that, naaah... it doesn't matter ; or, aiyah.. no use making complains one... ; or, err.. is ok. I don't wish to be the one who is victimised. I thought it only happens to the older generation?! but.. this group of kids that I was talking with this afternoon, they are ... ? Ok, I don't blame them. They don't know (I think) their RIGHTS and obviously, they forgot about the usage of COMMUNICATION (They are the futrue professionals in this field! ok... they just started their journey).

Erhm Erhm... Let me explain a little bit about RIGHT (from wikipedia once again). In jurisprudence and law, a Right is the legal or moral entitlement to do or refrain from doing something, obtaining an action, or thing recognition in civil society.

Yes my dearest ones, you paid for that. You have your RIGHTs to give your opinions, comments or even to complains. YOU PAID FOR IT. Didn't you want to get something in return after paying? I know, some of you might be thinking, What's the point? What will they do? They will probably tell you, we will take these into consideration, ONLY. It might not help if you complains for the first time. Can't you try for the second time, or maybe the third time? For me, at least you have tried. My philosophy, I won't give up, for certain things, especially if I am going to do it for a better future. You might describe as stubborn, but deep down inside me, I know I have my right. Don't tell me NO or YES, tell me why NO and why YES... Of course, I will do it at the right time to the right person at the right thing after taking other things into consideration.

My dearest ones, I am not asking you to fight or to quarel. I am asking you to TALK to the PD. My dearest ones, there are differents between talk, comments and complains (will write about the differences if I have chance next time). You need to be able to differentiate these 3 words, especially when you are in work.

My dearest ones, I have actually spent 4 hours to look for the first solution after the 45 minutes conversation with you. I took my trouble to wirte down the points and showed it to my superior. It shows how serious I am (and my superior) towards these comments that you had brought up. I am glad that you dare to speak up, eventhough to the wrong person (me). It doesn't matter, at least you have tried. I will try my best to help because I know, you tell me because you trust me. I am dissapointed at the same. No one reply my tag which is related to this blog. Will you tell me if I don't go into the library today? Will you tell me if I am not there to listen? Sad......

I am super duper tired today. I didn't want to blog tonight, but I promised sombody and I have got an important task to complete tonight for her (actually is a group of them). Yes, I have conveyed the message. YOUR MESSAGE HAS BEEN CONVEYED... to the PD. Eventhough I am not sure what will they do next or are they going to take their time to improve it. Trust me, it doesn't matter if it doesn't succes this time, but you are making things better.

Whoever read this blog, I hope you will be there at 3pm in the PD's office this Thursday. If I am willing to take trouble and spent 4 hours and 45 mintues for you, then please do me a small favour. Tell the PD what you have told me. The most important thing is that, please be there. Otherwise you will lost my trust, forever. Because I have done my part, now is your RIGHT to choose.

Marriage【结婚】

Thu, 17 May 2007 20:16:04 +0800

Jean, Jane and my Eiran asked me out for lunch today. Yish! I had already arranged for an appointment with my colleagues. Dear Mr. Eiran, please call me earlier for lunch next time, ok? VIP like me, according to Wyan very busy one! Since Jean said Eiran was with her, so I spared 10 minutes, walked from my office to Media Hub just to see them. Touched?! Must be eh... Except that somebody ignored me. Waved hand to me and can't wait for me to leave... how sad?! Anyway, I then ignored that person too and continue to chat with Jean Jean and Eiran. Of all things, we were actually talking about my wedding, which only will happen next year! Jean is so excited and even offer to help. aww.. so sweet. So, yes! This is going to be my FIRST page of my Bride's Diary.

I used to think that marriage is a couple's affair. Then slowly, I know that is no longer a 2-persons matters, is TWO families, especially in the Chinese Families. Then today, when I check online, it has now become a 2 persons + 2 families + 1 govermental + 1 social + 1 religious matter. It widen my thoughts again. Is not that I didn't know about it, just that I never thought about the "govermental", the "social" and the "religious". Without these, a couple's marriage will not be recognised! Maybe for Chinese, I will have to add one more, the "culture".

I am surprise too. It says, The MOST frequent form of marriage unites a man as husband and a woman as wife. A slow peerson like me actually: Huh?! Most?! Why not ALL? Nowadays, there are OTHERS form of marriage; for example polygamy and same-sex marriage. Meaning there is no longer A man and A woman. It can A man and N women or A man and A man. Trust me, in some countries, Polygamy and Same-sex Marriage are LEGAL.

The reasons people marry varies. My reason? For the UniSA kids, I AM GETTING OLD LAR! For myself, I want to be with my love one, I want to form a family with my love one. and Yes, I am waiting for the day to come.

P/S: Yay! Eiran agreed to be my photographer! Jean Jean agreed to be my flower girl! The person that I ignored volunteered to ... I forgot what it is, must be something not important.

Communication【沟通】

Wed, 16 May 2007 19:56:24 +0800

I was in a meeting today. We actually the VIPs were the discussing about the future for various schools and the future of education. I was amazed by my COO. Every simple word he used become s powerful suddenly. I guess this is because he has a good communication skill. From his speech, I then realized that how important an objective would be for a person or a company. Without an objective, direction can't be set, so what more talking about success?! See, this is done through communication. I was told that communication is the TOP 3 preferred courses. Therefore, I really wanted to know, WHAT IS COMMUNICATION?

Again I went online and found the explanation for “communication”. Communication allows people to exchange thoughts by several methods. It can be categorized into 2 groups, auditory means and physical means. Therefore, when speaking about communication, it is important to know what type of things are communicated between what agents and with what kind of results. [www.wikipedia.org].

In order for me to help the others, I need your help. I have come out with some questions and hoping that you would answer sincerely.

How much do you understand about “Communication” ?
What makes you choose “Communication”?
Where are you taking this course?
Why do you choose the place that you currently pursuing Communication?
What do you think of the school?
What do you think of the course structure?
What is it that you wish to be improved?
If you are given a chance, would you opt for a , , or communication degree? Why?
What is it that you wish to see in the school?
Name 10 top universities that you wish you pursue your studies.
Tag few people that will answer these questions. (Is ok if he / she isn’t from the communication field. Is ok too if he / she isn’t a student. Graduates, professionals from the field are welcome too. Make sure you put their link on their names)
Nick, Jean, Szujane, Wyan, Sue, Eiran, Caker

P/S: Ah! FInally get to Tag people. Eventhough feels evil, but you have no choice my dearest oneS...

TAG【】

Mon, 14 May 2007 20:55:18 +0800

I cannot believe it... I GOT TAGGED for the first time. I found out when I was checking update on Szujane's blog. Those were the same questions appeared in Wyan, Jean, Nick and Eiran's blog. I find it very erm... boring and stupid, hence I didn't bother to read those FAQs. I didn't even bother to scroll down the screen when I saw the first few questions in Szujane's blog. I was about to click the small little cross on top right until I suddenly felt one kind. So I scrolled down and down and huhhhhh... Tag 5 people who would do this survey: Kaven the Lazy bear. Is that my name? I paused for a moment. I think is me. Yes, is me lar!!!

TAG?! I don't know what to do with it. I don't even know what does it mean, so I checked online. Wikipedia, Online Dictionary. According to the dictionary, it says:
a) = Price tag
b) = The edge of the shoe lace
c) = Ending message
d) = Following Along (tagged along)
e) = Is a type of game
f) = The abbreviation for The Adjutant General

huh?! That's all?! What is it got to do with tag in a blog?! I told Jean Jean that I pretended that I didn't visit Szujane's blog, so I don't have to type anything. An older and wiser person like me won't answer such childish questions. Somehow, my fingers won't listen to me. It went and click on wikipedia and online dictionary then slowly click on post new blog, by the help of its best friend, the MOUSE. Thanks to Szujane! Well, never mind. My brain tells me that at least I replied this tag / topic, there will be people who are willing to reply mine as well when the next time I tag them. Right?! My Dearest W, J, S, N, E?

Here comes the boring questions and answers (why would you want to know all these? strange):

Name one person who made you smile last night.
I laugh most of the time

What were you doing at 8:00 this morning?
Reading Newspapers

What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
Typing this blog

What was something that happened to you in 2006?
I left my previous company and joined Taylor's. One of the many RIGHT things that I have done. Otherwise I won't get tagged.

Do you enjoy school?
ah?! err... I am working in a school. I definitely enjoyed working here, otherwise I won't apply for this job. But if you asking schooling... sorry lar, I am 11 years older than szujane.

How many different things did you drink today?
same old 2! Coffee 1 and Water unlimited.

What color is your hairbrush?
Which one are you referring to?

What was the last thing you paid for?
Toll

Where have you been last night?
Doing something ilegally like you do

What color is your front door?
Which house?

Where do you keep your change?
The person who serves me well will keep my change

What was the weather like today?
Hot and Cold.

What is the best ice cream flavor?
Durian

Do you want to cut your hair?
Yes! But can't cut much as I have to keep my long hair for a purpose

Are you over the age of 25?
How I wish?! not...

Do you talk a lot?
I spend 50% of my time sleeping, another 50% working / non sleeping. But I don't talk most of the 50%, soo.. is 35% lar. Hey! come to think about it, I don't talk that much...

Do you watch America’s Next Top Model?
No. I prefer fat models like Jean than models like Wyan.

Does your screen name have an “x” in it?
NO! CAN"T READ?! L A Z Y B E A R!

Do you know anyone named Steven?
Yes. My colleague...

Do you make up your own words?
Bearylicious = Delicious ; Beary Good = Very Good, Bear are you? = Where are you? and the list goes on...

Are you typically a jealous person?
Depends who, when, why, where and what that make me jealous lar

Name a friend whose name starts with the letter “A”:
Amy

Name a friend whose name starts with the letter “K”:
Don't know. In fact when comes to this question, I am already very sleepy... 10.15pm... So lazy to think of friends' name starts from K.

Do you chew on your straws?
No. Disgusting

Do you have curly hair?
Yes when I curled it

Where is the next place you’re going?
My dreamland

What is the last thing you ate?
Vitamins and Primrose Oil Pills. Getting older, need these weird things to keep myself healthy. Sigh...

At what age are you planning to get married?
What I planned and the actual age I am getting married is different. So, skipped this question

What is the best movie you’ve seen in the past two weeks?
Skip

Is there anyone you like right now?
Like don't have lar. Love got. Wanna know?

When was the last time you did the dishes, be honest!
I love cooking! How can I missed that?!

Are you currently depressed?
No.

Why did you answer and post this survey?
So that I can tag others in future

Tag 5 people who would do this survey.
Let the stupid game stop here. THE END.

P/S: For the first time my blog without a Chinese Title. Coz I don't know which is the right translation... Anyone?

IF【如果】

Fri, 11 May 2007 23:49:34 +0800

: by Nicholas Teo 【张栋梁】
: dedicated to Nick

To be honest, I have thought about it
Never wanted to keep in touch with you
Do not try to imply anything
That you have discovered something

To be honest, I wasn't lonely at all
I have plans for the following weekends
There will be some people who admired me
But this doesn't mean anything

My life isn't lack of anything
I live my life earnestly eventhough do feel sad sometimes
There are new friends, but they don't understand me well
They asked a lot but I only smiled

There will be no IF for me in future
I don't believe in the signs of zodiac
Too much of hypothesis will not revive my past
It will be good there is no IF

To be honest, after all these fights
You won't be able to read anything from my face anymore
There are a lot things which awaiting for me to learn
I am not the only one who has changed

I don't plan to write anything about Nick.. coz you won't want to believe that I know him through internet. And what a conicidence that he became my student 1 week later... Cheer Up my bro...

Jean【晶】

Thu, 10 May 2007 21:33:08 +0800

Name: Jean
First Impression: Tall, soft, good, PRETTY! VERY!
Second Impression: She is not as innocent as I think
How did we meet?
She came for registration for the course. Her mother was complaining that Jean should get a higher scholarship than just the 20%. I was looking at her and realized that she was concerned about her mother's reaction, so I kept quiet. Otherwise I will tell the mother, aunty ah, she study hard is because she did that for her good future and most importantly, for herself. You should be proud instead of discouranging her not to study so hard since it doesn't help her to earn a higher scholarship. Trust me, student like Jean will be able to excel in future.

What makes me blog about her?
I wonder why the youngster nowadays think only their generation can be computer savvy? She acted the same way like Weng Yan when she knew that I have a blog. I can't help to wonder why does she think that she is fat? If she is, then myself.. err... I think I should totally stop eating now. Jean?

Want to know what conversation was?

Lazybear says: i blogged about weng yan
J e a n says: u have a blog???
Lazybear says: of course. old ppl cannot have blog ah?
J e a n says: what's ur site?!!?
J e a n says: no tell me laa
Lazybear says: err….
Lazybear says: will give you tomorrow
Lazybear says: ok?
J e a n says: not ok
J e a n says: i want nowwwwww
Lazybear says: aiyah.. nothing to read...
Lazybear says: why you act like weng yan one?
Lazybear says: she did the same when she found out that i got a blog
J e a n says: nothing to read then why u want blog for lei
Lazybear says: err…
Lazybear says: yah oh...
Lazybear says: tomorrow lar

Conversation goes on

Lazybear says: clever girl
J e a n says: hahha.. don praise me lei. later i kembang
Lazybear says: aiyah, you should kembang, so thin
Lazybear says: but... got tummy
J e a n says: im so fat la!
Lazybear says: cannot take side view photos when you are wearing bikini
Lazybear says: aiyah, trust me, your future husband would want to feel you than to feel the bones lar...
J e a n says: but but but but... fat...
J e a n says: tummy is natural la
J e a n says: everyone also got
J e a n says: hahaha
Lazybear says: then go and take up some exercise and have healthy diet
Lazybear says: you are not FAT
J e a n says: photographer don let me hide lei
J e a n says: im fat la omg!
Lazybear says: ok, you are fat
Lazybear says: jean, i think you should eat less, you are so fat
Lazybear says: fatter than the first time when i met you
Lazybear says: YOU ARE FAT
J e a n says: yes.. thank u!
Lazybear says: pengsan
Lazybear says: if you are fat.. then what do i consider?
J e a n says: u just nice
Lazybear says: ah?!
Lazybear says: i don't understand you ppl lar
Lazybear says: i should be one who is shouting, I AM FAT LAR, OMG
J e a n says: but u look just nice
J e a n says: not fat
J e a n says: haha
Lazybear says: then you?
J e a n says: i am fat
Lazybear says: pengsan again…

Weng Yan【永恩】

Mon, 23 Apr 2007 22:23:53 +0800

	Name: Weng Yan First Impression: Tall, quiet, cool Second Impression: Still Tall, Cute, NAUGHTY!!! How did we meet? I explained to her about what is Communication about when she came to my office to enquire about the course. What makes me blog about her? We were chatting through MSN the other day. I found the conversation is very blunt and yet very interesting for me.
It seems like I was controlling the conversation. She felt geram but can't help to answer me even when she knew that I was trying to disturb her. It all started when I asked where can I get the Chat Box from...
Want to know what conversation was?
~Wyan~恩~ ~ says: where r u putting it? Lazybear says: my blog lar ~Wyan~恩~ ~ says: where is yr blog Lazybear says: on the net ~Wyan~恩~ ~ says: URL Lazybear says: oh... Lazybear says: Err… Lazybear says: i very paiseh Lazybear says: don't want to give can ah? ~Wyan~恩~ ~ says: cannot ~Wyan~恩~ ~ says: MUST give Lazybear says: later lar Lazybear says: i haven't finished arranging yet Lazybear says: sure give one lar. Lazybear says: you will be the second, ok? ~Wyan~恩~ ~ says: no, cant ~Wyan~恩~ ~ says: give!!!!!!!!!!! Lazybear says: huh? ~Wyan~恩~ ~ says: dun try to avoid Lazybear says: nothing to read ~Wyan~恩~ ~ says: from giving Lazybear says: for what i give you now? ~Wyan~恩~ ~ says: so that u wont refrain from giving later Lazybear says: Laugh out loud Lazybear says: i won't lar Lazybear says: but there is NOTHING yet ~Wyan~恩~ ~ says: okok, remember to give next time ar! Lazybear says: i am trying to arrange all the categories.. blah blah blah Lazybear says: only got 3 articles Lazybear says: i will give lar Lazybear says: but you will be the second person lar... Lazybear says: hehehe Lazybear says: ok or not? ~Wyan~恩~ ~ says: haha ~Wyan~恩~ ~ says: okok ~Wyan~恩~ ~ says: can can Lazybear says: how come you never ask who is the first? ~Wyan~恩~ ~ says: i knew u purposely emphasise on the word "you will be the second on lar" ~Wyan~恩~ ~ says: so i purposely din ask Lazybear says: clever girl Lazybear says: lol Lazybear says: wanted to make you jealous... Lazybear says: but failed ~Wyan~恩~ ~ says: haha ~Wyan~恩~ ~ says: so whos the first? Lazybear says: ah... Lazybear says: nick ~Wyan~恩~ ~ says: WHY??? Lazybear says: please tell me you are jealous? ~Wyan~恩~ ~ says: no i am not Lazybear says: ok.. ~Wyan~恩~ ~ says: if its him, then i'm not Lazybear says: then no need to tell you why ~Wyan~恩~ ~ says: okok! ~Wyan~恩~ ~ says: tell me why ~Wyan~恩~ ~ says: pls Lazybear says: tell me you are jealous? ~Wyan~恩~ ~ says: ok fine! I AM JEALOUS Lazybear says: you know ah, i start to like you more than any UniSA students.... ~Wyan~恩~ ~ says: whY? Lazybear says: coz that night we were chatting, and he asked me about my blog Lazybear says: so i gave lar ~Wyan~恩~ ~ says: ooo Lazybear says: but only 3 articles... Lazybear says: so he only managed to read 2... coz the first one is in chinese... Lazybear says: like that lor... Lazybear says: wahaha ~Wyan~恩~ ~ says: haha ~Wyan~恩~ ~ says: i see ~Wyan~恩~ ~ says: okie.. ~Wyan~恩~ ~ says: well, i am not jealous anymore ~Wyan~恩~ ~ says:(if i had been jealous b4) Lazybear says: never mind Lazybear says: i just take it as you DID ~Wyan~恩~ ~ says:ok then ~Wyan~恩~ ~ says:anything will do la ~Wyan~恩~ ~ says:but about this i wanna know why : Lazybear says (15:53): you know ah, i start to like you more than any UniSA students.... Lazybear says: Laugh out loud Lazybear says: coz we can click together ~Wyan~恩~ ~ says:haha ~Wyan~恩~ ~ says:really? ~Wyan~恩~ ~ says:yay!~ Lazybear says: what's that yay? Lazybear says: how am i suppose to pronouce it? Lazybear says: but you are still the second lar.. coz number one is nick... ~Wyan~恩~ ~ says:yay! means YAAY ~Wyan~恩~ ~ says:haihz.. ~Wyan~恩~ ~ says:still second to NICK? Lazybear says: what is yaay? ~Wyan~恩~ ~ says:nvm then ~Wyan~恩~ ~ says:haihz ~Wyan~恩~ ~ says:Sweat! Lazybear says: can i find this in the net? ~Wyan~恩~ ~ says:yay , u say it something like yeah! when u r happy Lazybear says:oh... Lazybear says:ok Lazybear says:i am going home.. Lazybear says:bye I can't help to laugh more... I can't believe that I am actually posting this on my blog... pengsan ...

Motivation【动力】

Sun, 22 Apr 2007 22:15:02 +0800

Is been a long time ever since I posted my last blog. One year... yes, is ONE YEAR! I have finally start to blog again. The power that urge me to start blogging again is the kids currently studying in Taylor's - UniSA programme. Who are these kids? They are Nick, Jean, Weng Yan, Szu Jane. I wanted to introduce them one by one by blogging about them... but I am too lazy tonight.
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Sometimes, you really need someone or something to give you a push, to keep you moving... *_* yawn... Don't worry, I have already got a topic what to write for tomorrow. At least I have started to blog again, right? so... GOOD NIGHT!

Let Go 【放开】

Thu, 06 Apr 2006 22:17:44 +0800

Let go...... when you can't love the unloveable anymore.

Let go...... when you can't forgive the unpardonable anymore.

Let go...... when you can't believe the unbelievable anymore.

Let go...... when you can't hope the hopeless anymore.

Porcupine 【刺猬】

Thu, 09 Mar 2006 19:59:48 +0800

Porcupines are animals best known for theirs coat of sharp spines which protects them from predators. When threatened, a porcupine will raise its quills. This is the piloerection reflex, the same as the goose bump reflex in human.

I feel like I am a porcupine now and have spines on me. I am trying to protect myself from being hurt again. 10 years ago, I was hurt by 2 of my very best friends. Sigh... It takes me years to forget and forgive. Ever since then, I have phobia hearing "BEST FRIEND".

10 years later, I met a friend whom I thought I can trust. I shared my laughters and sadness with this friend of mine. I trusted this friend so much until I forgot the incident 10 years ago. I told myself, No, this friend will not hurt you because this friend promised you. My care for this friend grows even more when I knew about his/her story. Therefore, I hide my spines and accept this friend with my heart. I was afraid that my spines would hurt this friend of mine if I don't hide them. I know this friend needs loves from friends.

However...... I never know that this friend actually...... I am not sure what word should I use to describe......Hurt? Betrayed? Lied?

This friend didn't do anything wrong towards me but towards anther two persons, which for me, is a LIE. Because of that, this friend lost my trust, which for me, is a Hurt. I tried my best to forgive, which I did. I tried my best to forget what had happened, which I failed. I told this friend, I choose to write your mistake on the sand and let the wind blow it away, I forgive you. I now need time to forget, because there is no way that I can write my memories on the sand and let the wind blow it away. I wish I can.

I am being very rude to this friend recently. I know why I behave like this and I do not like being rude, but I can't help. I think is a "piloerection reflex " for me. I think this friend knows what happen. This friend just do not want to ask why and what happen. When looking at this friend sometimes, I feel sorry for this friend and myself. I feel like hugging this friend again and tell, I miss you my friend. I didn't do it because I know, everything has changed ever since what he/she had done.

I am feeling bad for hurting this friend now. How I wish I can keep my spines and love this friend of mine again......?