December 20, 2006

今天今天今天..我生日生日生日...二十一歲...WooHoo

今天今天今天是我生日哦, 已經二十一歲了, 已經完全屬於二字頭了....ㄇㄇ....所以所以今天到底做了什麼呢?ㄇㄇ, 我花了第一個十分鐘再恐怖片'鬼玲'上...不過不怎麼好看...再來我花了一個半小時在msn跟電話上, 然後一個半小時在漫畫上.....所以,所以我睡時已經三三三點了!!然後然後然後原本要在九點起床去看電影的, 結果結果結果在在在......呃, 一點二十分才起來....哈哈哈.....所以是三分之一的時間在睡覺...接下來我就跟eVee去好樂迪狂唱了, 原本eVee有折價卷....可是可是可是她忘記帶了...算了算了算了,看在是我生日的份上,你有捨命陪我...我這寬宏大量的帥哥就原諒妳吧....哈哈哈......接接接下來到了六點半, 唱了四個小時的卡拉okay, eVee需要去參加t她那國術團的湯圓晚會...已已已經遲到(haha)的她就去坐公車了...我則跑去SOGO跟老媽會合,原本要買斜背的背包結果沒喜歡的....所以所以就跑去買蛋糕了....看了很久很久很久....選了櫻桃起士口味的蛋糕(因為我只想要起士或是冰淇淋蛋糕...).....接接接下來....老媽先回家...我怎跑去買姊答應我的NDS.....ha.....去了西門町...買了黑色的NDS跟一個音樂遊戲...然後就就就...回回回去家附近跟剛下班的老姊去吃'元世祖的刷刷刷羊肉.'.....ㄇㄇ....好貴.....點了很少還要八百多....ㄇㄇ...還好不是我出錢...哈哈.....吃飽了....就回家切蛋糕吧.....點點點燃蠟燭......照照片....照到蠟燭燃掉了....哈哈哈.....唱生日歌.....許願........切切切蛋糕.....ㄇㄇ.......蛋糕超好吃...因為是我選的....Muhahahahahaha................ㄇㄇ....好....今天開始, 我就二十一歲了.............從今以後.....我要我要我要.........活著的感覺!!!!!!!

二

十

一

!!!!

Posted by tako_with_a_twist at 天空部落 │23:02:07 │ 回應(10) │ 引用(0) │天天一Blog

December 15, 2006

the wall

There is a wall on my head.
You can't see it.
Only special people can, such as I.
But I still have to use a mirror, cuz otherwise I won't be able to see the wall.
The wall is consisted of not steel, but wood, wood of a thousand-year-old tree.
Are you kidding me?
Ha, there is a lawn in front of the wall, I don't like to mow it.
I like to see the weed grow.
They've grown so tall that you won't be able to see the wall standing in it.
These weeds have different colours and speci.
Some weed is cannibalistic, some weed sing like the singer I'll never be, and some weed sprays a different scent every twenty minutes.
Some weed like to cry, some weed are just too sad to cry, and some weed likes to vent.
So there was I, standing amongst these strange weed.
The venting weed start to nab. It thinks I'm too short and should be out of sight.
"hey, shortie.....shame on you. you're shorted than some weed. Get outta here, would you?"
The crying weed start to cry and I said," I envy you, crying weed. I want to cry, but my tears have run dry."
The crying weed said nothing. It cired still.
The too-sad-too-cry weed looked at me for a while and said nothing.
I caressed it gently with my hand and said, "you're just like me.................................. I hate you." With a hopeless face, it said nothing.
I then walked forward and met the singing weed.
Oh, was jealous spawning like cockroaches in my body!
"I can never be the singer that you are," I said to the singing weed.
Not responding, it sings stll.
I was mad, oh I was mad. I almost snap it in half, but i did not.
I walked forward still and met the scent-spraying weed.
The smell of fresh brew coffee filled the air and I was hooked.
The scent was so strong that I could swear that it was like being drenched in caffine. Oh, was i hooked.
I waited, then, wondering what the next scent will be.
Twenty minutes have passed and finally, pufff.......
It was the smell of my junior high's washroom.....
Oh, god, I've never ran so fast in my enire life.....
Covering my face, I ran to the man-eating weed.
"if you wish to pass, leave a part of your body to fill my need..."
Hesitate I did not.
I snap one of my tails since I have so many of them and feed the weed.
The weed was content and let me pass.
So finally, in front of me, there is the wall.................

Posted by tako_with_a_twist at 天空部落 │01:08:16 │ 回應(0) │ 引用(0) │我就是愛亂寫

December 14, 2006

任務

今天下午完成了一項爸嗎交代我的任務
去了玉成里辦公室用我和媽的名義捐了些錢給李長源
他原本有父母, 還有兩個哥哥與一個姊姊, 結果爸爸先與姊姊跳河自殺
媽媽也偕同他的哥哥們在不久前追隨爸爸跟姊姊的腳步在同一條河裡自殺
結果一家六口走了五個, 只剩下了他....
他們一家六口住在一個四坪的小公寓, 連睡覺也要輪流睡....
我真的不知道李先生的心情為何....
還好台灣的善心人士很多,
今天我在辦公室附近問路時, 那裡的阿伯馬上猜中了我來的用意
在辦公室裡, 看見捐錢名冊簿上滿滿的簽名就覺得台灣這地方還是有滿滿的溫情的....

不過, 最好這些錢不是某某黑心企業家從些良民身上榨取來而用來安慰自己的良心的
這種錢, 一定會帶衰............討厭你們, 通通去吃鱉八,黑心企業家.........

李先生, 加油啊................
自己去找你生存的意義八.......

Posted by tako_with_a_twist at 天空部落 │22:58:33 │ 回應(3) │ 引用(0) │天天一Blog

December 9, 2006

你一定要自己寫...

瀏海總是擋著我的視線
鼓氣嘴來往上吹
哈, 自由了一秒

身體裡的感覺, 一直在變
為什麼腦裡一有了妳
肚子裡就有一股熱氣
擴散開來, 我馬上變了樣
好像暖暖包裡的金屬幣被壓了一下
波
化學反應開始傳染
我喜歡 卻又討厭這種感覺
這一刻
身體不是自己

我該醒了
作了一個好久好久的夢
夢裡的我
一直伸手往前抓
眼前黑漆漆一片
手上不時我的臉
你再看, 再看清楚一點
那是什麼
你看啊
你看
要消失了
別慌
還會回來的
希望它不要回來了

深呼吸吧
想起 goose bumps
活著   還是很好的

Posted by tako_with_a_twist at 天空部落 │01:03:14 │ 回應(2) │ 引用(0) │裡面有靈感的撲滿

流淚

男兒有淚不輕彈,
我卻很喜歡哭,
倒是我經常都哭不出來,
能哭泣其實是一種享受啊...
特別喜歡正在哭的自己
其實,
我也可以是很感性的...

Posted by tako_with_a_twist at 天空部落 │00:48:58 │ 回應(0) │ 引用(0) │裡面有靈感的撲滿

December 6, 2006

第一次......

今天 mark the day of 我的第一次失戀..........
嗯, 就這樣.......

Posted by tako_with_a_twist at 天空部落 │01:07:26 │ 回應(0) │ 引用(0) │天天一Blog

December 4, 2006

第一次

生平第一次染\頭髮, 在 Mod's Hair 的民生店(就在誠品旁邊)。花了不少錢, 雖然跟溫哥華比起來已經經濟很多了....在染的時候一直在想, "天哪, 我染頭髮了!!!"我滿怕回高雄時會被阿公阿媽罵...

其實滿爽的啦, 當自己小時候定下的禁忌(我永遠都不要喝酒, 我永遠都不要染髮....etc)被自己一條又一條地打破時,會有一種奇怪的快感, 好像侷限了自己很久的蛋殼被一個個打破了似的, 每打破一個, 我就又多了一些舒展的空間, 可是可是可是, 就也許我又離一個沒有原則的我更近了...是一種無法形容的奇妙感覺..................不知道到底是好還是壞呢?

Posted by tako_with_a_twist at 天空部落 │23:22:32 │ 回應(5) │ 引用(0) │天天一Blog

December 3, 2006

WTF!!?

So many f***ing election flags and banners on the streets!!!!
What the bleep are those candidates thinking?

Sure, all voters will think like this------

    "Hey, whosever flag shall I see first, I shall vote for them!!!"

                                                       or

    "Hey, I will just vote for the candidate who has the most flags!!! "

This is so stupid and waste of resourse.
NO, your stupid flags and banners aren't going to make a difference!! You're better off saving those money and donate them to the local charities!!!!
Geez, how dumb do you think the voters are?!! Are we just a bunch of morons that will just randomly vote for someone just cuz he or she has the most flags up? What the hell were they thinking?!!!!

Taiwanese are not morons!!!!!!
There!!! I got it out of my system!!!
But then, maybe, just maybe, we are the morons they think we are.
Now that's a scary thought.

P.S. (wow, I can actually vote now......that's so weird....guess I'm getting old)

Posted by tako_with_a_twist at 天空部落 │00:31:46 │ 回應(0) │ 引用(0) │天天一Blog

December 2, 2006

最愛也最恨的地方

終於又回到了這裡
這個我最愛也最恨的國家

不知它是否該張開手迎接
我這個最該受到歡迎也最不該受到歡迎的東西

在飛機上, 我一直讀著侯文詠的 "危險心靈,"
想著一些或許我這五年來早該想的東西
書中很多的一切都好像釘著張育誠這三個字, 而不止在書裡,了解的那一瞬間, 它們好像都被釘在我腦裡,釘口流出來的不是腦漿,更不是血,是時間、是我已經失去了,再也追不回來的時間, 是我應該在外頭和朋友大笑特笑, 想著活著真好卻 instead 在家裡面對天花板和牆角的時間.......

在看看那些文字, 想了一想,
總覺得那些文字好像就是我, 卻又不是我,
是更勇敢的我, 是比現在的我更勇敢個十倍百倍的我
是個勇敢到能夠清楚地思考到底我的人生,這個社會賦予我的教育發生了什麽事
為什麼我會變成這個樣子......

Posted by tako_with_a_twist at 天空部落 │21:17:38 │ 回應(0) │ 引用(0) │右邊額頭上的傷疤

December 1, 2006

剝皮了的水果

我像正被剝皮的水果
它一絲絲地剝著我的皮

"剝不完的, 你用削的也是一樣," 我這麼地對它說著, "你剝一層,我就長一層"

它沒有答話,靜靜地剝著皮.

我看了它一眼,然後抬頭望著天空, 現在正在下雪,我們四周白茫茫一片, 我很冷,其實已經凍僵了, 我的面部肌肉像斷了線的木偶,一點也不動地杵在我的臉,這死了演員的舞台劇. 我的眼珠在抗議, 這兩顆裡好像還剩些什麼, 兩橦鬼火, 忽明忽瀎.還想存活很久. 我想要笑, 像小丑一樣瘋狂地笑,可是嘴唇動不了.我想要哭, 但是淚腺已結成了冰, 我不能動, 麻醉藥效還沒過, 它還在剝著我的皮....地上到處都是血, 染進雪裡, 化成粉紅色地一片一片,像是蔓曜苺口味的雪花冰, 哈, 這真是該死地羅曼蒂克.

剝不完地, 你永遠也剝不完的, 放棄吧...

我閉上雙眼, 感覺它的手在我結了霜的皮膚上. 相同的動作, 持續著..

也許它可以剝完, 我心裡這麼地期待著...

Posted by tako_with_a_twist at 天空部落 │12:32:54 │ 回應(0) │ 引用(0) │左邊頸子上的刀痕

November 23, 2006

牙醫都愛我

牙醫都愛我

我用可樂當漱口水
巧克力當牙膏
Hershey Bar 當牙刷

我吃完飯都不刷牙
也沒人說我不雅
頂多 多喝一杯蘋果西達
牙線我總把它擺著 等到那天上了Ebay 賣它個"三十年的牙線"

每次去那牙醫, 櫃檯小姐總是笑咪咪
牙醫一看見我, 眼睛裡都是Ka-Ching Ka-Ching
我實在是沒幾個錢, 也只有在這dental 診所裡才能裝有錢
我一嘩啦啦就是幾百塊
我想他們去Casino都沒賺那麼快
東補補, 西補補
花啦花啦錢就一直掉
難怪牙醫診所都比其他診所漂亮
錢多多 錢多多
專門吃我這種愛吃糖的小孩
我可憐 我可憐
我很懶 我犯賤
我還是愛吃糖
我還是喝我的珍珠奶綠
我還是飯後不刷牙

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November 20, 2006

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我看不到地平線
一點一滴也不

擋風玻璃外
黑灰色與紅藍色交疊
Overall 的橘色不是黃昏

前方 黑灰色箱子的影子
伸 縮
有 節奏 像
被輕按的黑色琴鍵
de da de da

我是就這麼前進著
偶爾轉個彎
Automatism
機器人
像 領薪水的上班族
像 我看不到的地平線
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我不想看到地平線
一點一滴也不
妳呢?

Posted by tako_with_a_twist at 天空部落 │14:05:58 │ 回應(3) │ 引用(0) │裡面有靈感的撲滿

November 19, 2006

blah

I feel like blahing
白色的蓮蓬
灰色的小叮噹
火紅色的水
我在壞天氣裡, 撐著一支泡過 Singapore Sling 的小雨傘
妳在對岸,向我招著手
妳的背後, 煙火連天
一颗流彈在我們隻見爆開

cut

我的電腦前
ta ke de ta de ke ka ta
鍵盤一直被毫無節奏地敲打著
so much for my typing class
住嘴
bite me
想總可以吧
想她, 想我, 想我們
想她,想過去,想想當時天真的我
想也沒屁用
每一刻都好假
只有現在,毫無釐差的現在,不是前一0.1秒,也不是後一0.1秒
現在!
只有現在

半小時過後(no, seriously)

can't remember what I was typing about
率差
頻率有相差
駝背地在向黑色的盒子朝聖
黑盒子的output就是我們的bible
blah

cut

pssspssspssss

:P

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November 17, 2006

......

我想要寫寫東西,不想改
錯了就錯了,
寫什麼好
我就來個 surrealism 好了
天 這個
水 火
妳那天沒有過來
留下我一個人跟群意識者在等待
我沒有東西可以給妳
望著妳的號碼
就這麼地覺得
覺得我們距離好遠
瘋
就讓我一個人瘋
溫哥華的冬天 刺著我
我的OK繃留在臺灣
涉水太難
我想哭
fuck
我喜歡哭
可是我沒力氣了
我想睡
睡很就很久
我很煩
很容易生氣
我火氣很大
想要打人
我又沒膽子學rocky去屠宰場打冰凍的牛排
煩那
去死去死去死
我也不知道誰該死
反正通通去死就對了
啊啊阿阿阿阿阿阿阿阿阿!!!!
沒什麼值得高興的事情
我正在面對著一道牆
牆上的洞越來越多了
好像很脆弱的樣子
可是it's still a fucking wall
我的翅膀像關在籠裡的雞的雞翅膀一樣
飛不起來
啊阿阿阿阿阿阿阿阿阿!!!
我的啊其實更多個,
是我的手指太慢
煩煩煩煩煩!!!!!!

機場 瓷杯 倒影 湖中
一邊大一邊小的眼睛
能看得了什麼?

Posted by tako_with_a_twist at 天空部落 │15:25:38 │ 回應(2) │ 引用(0) │未分類

October 28, 2006

啊!!!!!!

I feel like crap, my life is full of little tiny holes and big ones.
I want to sleep the longest time and never wake up.
I feel like smashing the black box.
Have you ever felt like smashing the black box?
Stomp on it, hack and slash it, slam it, crush it and throw it against the wall.
Ahhhhhhh!!!!!!!
This sucks!!!

I feel like smashing the black box!!!

Posted by tako_with_a_twist at 天空部落 │11:56:19 │ 回應(4) │ 引用(0) │天天一Blog

October 6, 2006

一年之初 ---- "Do Over"

"沒有過去

沒有未來

我走到哪裡，哪裡就是現在．．．"

印象最深刻的台詞

在高速公路的盡頭

停著的跑車

開過的柏油是過去

往前看

未完成的路是未來

少年，嗑過藥的 high：

"路不見了。"

鬱著的　年輕導演：

"路不是不見了，是沒有路。"

手指著前方、烏漆嘛黑的前方

害怕

而

我們現在站著的　想著的　佔有的

是現在

我們

存在

為什麼存在？

Posted by tako_with_a_twist at 天空部落 │16:35:02 │ 回應(4) │ 引用(0) │裡面有靈感的撲滿

September 28, 2006

腦中的影像

白絲手帕、黑盒子

蠕動的七彩線條

眨眼的瞬間　　不一樣的世界

雜亂的房間　　成堆的衣服

墨水畫



交替的影像　語言混亂　無法表達自己的每天

累得很快　睡得很多　

所有該做的事　被我包了一個裹　拼了命的往前丟

丟到了明天　後天　大後天　下個月　再下個月　下一年　再一年

下輩子　甚或是

永遠

Posted by tako_with_a_twist at 天空部落 │13:27:53 │ 回應(3) │ 引用(0) │裡面有靈感的撲滿

September 27, 2006

戰役

我隨時都得留意

留意著敵軍

’小心眼’在不遠處匍伏前進

我的彈藥所剩無幾

而射出去的又盡是空言空語

安全的壕溝離我好遠

敵人的眼神離我好近

胸前的那道傷口　才剛止住了血　

一小時前的那場戰役　記憶依然猶新

’耍心機’從背後偷襲　　我使出了九牛二虎之力　　才暫時將他驅離

我好冷，身體抖著，衣不蔽體，在這戰場上，我只能裸體

我好怕，怕下一次’閒言閒語’的空襲

我累了，想要靜靜睡去

我什麼時候　　才能打完這場毫無意義的戰役？

　什麼時候　　才能變回我自己？

Posted by tako_with_a_twist at 天空部落 │14:09:15 │ 回應(2) │ 引用(0) │天天一Blog

September 26, 2006

uh.......好像很久很久沒來了...........SLiMaSei

uh.......說抱歉大概沒啥用吧．．．．．．
我回來了．．．．．
從今天開始會多寫一些了．．．ㄇㄇ．．．．
開始吧．．．．

白天，十一點，被按了的鬧鐘　還　
　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　躺在懷裡
　　　　　　　些許的罪惡感　還　
　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　存在腦海裡
I guess I miss another freaking class.

I think I will give it a little bit of crap.

三點睡　好像　永遠不是個好決定
陳綺貞的聲音卻好像總是在深夜裡最近
悸動，側臉的唇語，好像就在她的聲帶旁，側耳傾聽

I had to be moved.

fastforward...

起床
面對著衣櫃
頭痛著這一天該怎麼掩飾自己
紅、白、藍的頭巾　要配什麼樣的上衣？要撘那一條褲子？
綁不綁頭髮？
哈，原來我遲到不是沒有原因

cut

沒什麼特別的一天
只是因為project，有在整理自己照得不能看的照片
simplicity 　 framing　 balance　 lines　 rule of thirds
我的照片上，幾乎沒一個出現

Ahhhhhhhhhhh.............

Oops, 好像沒底片了．．．．





Posted by tako_with_a_twist at 天空部落 │14:27:02 │ 回應(2) │ 引用(0) │天天一Blog

September 6, 2006

First Day in School

Today is the first day in a new semester in SFU. I gave up at the right time, took a shower as usual and thought to myself that I was gonna start working out today so I packed my clothes and towers and headed out. The bus was late, but it was okay cuz I got to school on time. I went into the classroom. Hmm.....no good seat, appraently. I then took a seat in the first row, checked the entire class and, what a shame, no pretty girls.......I was already a bit disappointed in this class. After a few minutes or so, the class started. The prof was young. He told us that we don't have to call him a doc since he has no PhDs, then he humoursely mentioned, " Oh, this class is for Microbiology, by the way." The class laughed; however, I didn't understand what was so funny about it........a few seconds later........oh, I get it............he said it as if someone would walk into the wrong class room and since no one would do such a stupid thing, what he said becomes humorous ........ha.....funn.............wait.............microbiology?..............isn't this class supposed to be computing science?.........................................................................................................................So I asked, " This is microbiology?" and the whole class roar with laughter......................
Apparently, I went into the wrong classroom.

So I got up and took my leave, bowed out of my role as the class clown.......haha................It really wasn't all that funny..............and headed into the computer room to check my class schedule.............and I found out..............hey...............I wasn't in the wrong classroom...............then why???..........................oh...........................I was at the WRONG TIME....................I mistook Tuesday with Monday...........................AHHHHHHHHHH.................That's such a stupid mistake...................and my Tuesday's first class started half an hour earlier..............and it's in Surrey..........................................................I guess I am gonna missed my first class in school.......................haha....................................................

It really wasn't all the funny.................for me anyway

DAMN YOU stupid labour day!!!!
There really should be a reminder in school that says, "ATTENTION, Today is Tuesday, NOT Monday!!!"

Posted by tako_with_a_twist at 天空部落 │15:40:15 │ 回應(3) │ 引用(0) │天天一Blog
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